coffee thought...Horoscope: Gemini: March 28th, 2014

You are moved to express your affections more openly than usual.

Giving and receiving appreciation, love, and happiness come into your life now.

You also want to be surrounded with beauty and harmonious people, and your artistic efforts flourish. Enjoy the day and people around you.

I think my love language is touch.
Like I long want need to be touched.
(by someone I am attracted to, not the random subway molestations on my daily commute)
It is not a game.
It is something that I have discovered is pivotal to my existence.
And for someone who has not been touched in quite sometime,
I know there is something missing in my being.
Luckily my capacity to love has not been affected/ effected
And my capacity for giving (to my friends, family, self yeah right who am i kidding)
is still in tact.
But, as this horoscope says I am moved to express my affections more openly than usual- it means I am moved to vocalise this more (ask and I shall receive? right?) HOPEFULLY the giving and receiving appreciation, love, and happiness come into my life. RIGHT NOW. Like immediately.
Like, IMMEDIATELY.
you hear me Universe.
OK, OK.
that's all...

Horoscope: Gemini: March 24th, 2014

You can afford to be avant-garde today--let the progressive revolutionary in you roam at will. Today is filled with thought-provoking discussions about controversial topics, unusual or offbeat ideas, or "whacky" concepts. The tempo of your life is increasing and may leave you feeling frazzled today however. Because you are quite restless at present, you may say things which leave others stunned.


Well apparently that is the typical pace of my life- filled with whacky concepts, feeling frazzled and restless, often saying things to leave folks stunned.
guess I should have some coffee to make it do what it do...
that's all...

My kind of...

This
Is
Exactly
What
I
Want
Cause
It
Mirrors
Who
I
Am
How
I
Love.
Love.

I can't buy your love, don't even wanna try.

Sometimes the truth won't make you happy, still I'm not gonna lie.

But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you.

I know I'm far from perfect, nothin' like your entourage

I can't grant you any wishes, I won't promise you the stars.

But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you.

Cause when you've given up.

When no matter what you do it's never good enough.

When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,

That's when you feel my kind of love.

And when you're crying out.

When you fall and then can't pick your happy off the ground

When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around.

That's when you feel my kind of love.

You won't see me at the parties, I guess I'm just no fun.

I won't be turning up the radio singing, "Baby You're The One."

But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you.

I know sometimes I get angry, and I say what I don't mean.

I know I keep my heart protected, far away from my sleeve.

But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you.

Cause when you've given up.

When no matter what you do it's never good enough.

When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,

That's when you feel my kind of love.

And when you're crying out.

When you've fallen and can't pick your happy off the ground

When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around.

That's when you feel my kind of love.

And when you've given up.

When no matter what you do it's never good enough.

When you never thought that it could ever get this tough,

That's when you feel my kind of love.

coffee thought...

these words are some of the words/thoughts/feelings/emotions that i can truly say i have/am/had/were feeling at some point [past/present/and i am sure i will feel in the future]

Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those.

 

  

I desire the things that will destroy me in the end.

 

   

I have never found anybody who could stand to accept the daily demonstrative love I feel in me, and give back as good as I give.

 

   

I think I made you up inside my head.

 

  

I'd say go to hell, but I never want to see you

Horoscope: Gemini: March 18th, 2014

Oh what a beautiful morning!
Oh what a beautiful day!
That's how I shall begin the musings of a trip to work this am

and here is the horoscope for the day....

You speak very clearly, convincingly, and forcefully now, so that there is no mistaking what your views and opinions are. You can argue a good case, make a very persuasive presentation, or successfully challenge someone whose ideas do not agree with your own. This transit lasts for a few weeks.

coffee thought...

If this is coffee thought and I have not had my morning coffee does that mean I am really without thought? 

Or just without thoughts pertaining to coffee? 

What if I am thinking about coffee and how I would have that this morning once I arrive at work versus the random stuff I think about as I drink coffee at work? 

Is it all just a fascinating rouse?
At any rate here I am on my way to work listening to some Aretha (queen of soul) Franklin singing about a 'Do Right Man" listen here- that is just about what I need right now- along with 'RESPECT' and 'Dr. Feelgood' to 'Save Me' and Makes me 'feel Ike a natural woman'--not a 'chain of fools'. Also, to know that he's 'all I need to get by' that 'bridge over troubled water'.

Yes. 

I need him to Ummm umm hmm...'I say a little prayer', and 'think'...cause 'I'm daydreaming 'that we 'rock steady' and 'I'm in love' but 'ain't no way' cause 'I never loved a man the way that I loved you'. So 'share your love' with me cause I wanna say 'baby I love you'

Yummy.. Someone has an aromatic cup of Joe on this train. Baby I'm definitely in love.
That's all.

Towels...and the illusion of it all...

The thrill is gone the gig is up. 
The mystery has been solved. 
All pretense and performance can stop as there is nothing left. 

Take a look at this pic....

(This pic is courtesy of a random google search... Just random)The thing that shattered the perception of perfect is these here towels.

Normally towels are not something to destroy your perception but in this case they happen to be.
Towels just molded over this bulky foam thingy- just atrocious.  I used to think that in the store- people took time to actually fold the towels/ placed them expertly on the shelves and efficiently placed the lines together.

It makes me think of all the other perceived perfections of the world-

like snazzy red shoes would really take you very far- 

and maybe in some cases if you were someone who could actually wear those shoes and not feel like a fraud then probably you are going somewhere.

I'm not that person (all the time) tho I continually try to walk that walk...in heels.  Some days I can, I do. Others... not so much... Yet somehow, just like we were sold (and bought) the dream of work hard, don't be a burden to society, pay your bills on time and eventually you will have a house, car, man and 2.5 kids with a white picket fence and all the great sex you can handle (no one else was sold that????!) 

The reality is that is not the case. 

It is an illusion complete with disappointed, unfulfilled unions, balloon mortgages, looming foreclosure, hearty student loan payments for a degree you have not 'actually used' yet, mediocre if that sex with random strangers and the disenchantment if it all. 

You post on the wide world web your fabulous time had at some swanky NY hotspot but fail to mention the 2 hr line you waited in, the cheap off the rack shoes that pinch your toes, the dress (or mens items) that the tag is tucked into just so you can  return it to the store still maintaining that illusion. The standing at the bar hoping to bee seen and chatted to and even touched.

Yes. Touched- just to FEEL- yes, you forgot to mention that.

 Anywho may as well enjoy the illusion- whodunit and ran did say the freaks come out at night.

Also....this pic right here... Folks in denial about a drinking habit (not it!!)

Psst...Hey baby what's your #??

So. What's your #??
No, not your cell phone #- but your number number.
You know the number of folks you have had coitus with.
Well??
Think about it.
 I'll wait.
(insert Jeopardy music)
Some of y'all have to think back. Think long and hard (woah).
Some of y'all may need to pull out a a pen and paper, a calculator, an abacus, and graphing paper to get to that #.
Go ahead. OK. Everyone have that #?
Cool.
Next thought...
who likes blow jobs?
(or who doesn't???...I digress)
Assignment- of that number you calculated ladies (and gents) how many of them have requested a BJ? how many have you given a BJ to?
Voluntarily? <--- technically they all should be voluntarily or at least agreed upon....
Now who doesn't like a blow job. I mean,
How many men do you know don't like blow jobs?
That many, huh? Well, what if you like them (giving) and he don't like receiving, do you just suck it up and don't? (No pun intended) or do you just do what you like in hopes you can convert him... or what if not at all and there is no sucking involved???
Sigh...
So many questions- but this leads me to what are folks doing/ not doing in the realms of satisfying relationships.
Sexually satisfying relationships to be more specific.
Are folks willing to go outside the box (maybe all 50 shades of gray outside MY box) to satisfy the desires of their mate?  What are your limits? Hard? Soft? Limits? (who limits....again digressing)
Like what if the dude or chick you are with satisfies at least 70% of your needs (whatever and however kinky they may be...or not for the folks who ain't about that life) what does one do to get that 40% [YES I know my math is off but I would just like to say that some women give more than 100%...that's all ]- or is that just left on the table untouched?
Does one go they life with 'OK enough' sex?
[What does OK enough sex even look/ feel like??]
Considering you have a comparison to compare the sexual nature of your relationship to-
what if you are with the 40% dude?
Must we search for at least a passing grade??

Horoscope: Gemini: March 8th, 2014

This is a very good time to begin implementing the plans and promises that you have made to yourself, as any new endeavor is likely to succeed. A new health regimen, actions taken to advance professionally, or anything you do to move toward achieving a cherished goal or ideal goes well now.



Sigh...why is it the promises I made to myself are the ones that always get pushed to the last thing??

Horoscope: Gemini: March 7th, 2014

Start talking and keep up the conversation until you've made yourself perfectly clear. Emotional energies are strong and upbeat today, and all you have to do is ride them as if you were born to sail. Foundations laid today will be firm and supportive and continue to evolve that way. Feelings of friendship abound and it's easy to see the good side of anyone, just remember what you see may only be one side of the view.