Lunch meet pickle

And everyone knows how I looooove a good pickle!
(this is my attempt at healthy/cheap eating& living)


and dig this:

Gemini Horoscope for January 31, 2011

What's your rush? The upcoming plans you have will have to wait anyway, so there's no sense in running around -- doing so only wastes energy. Keep your focus on what needs to happen today, and let tomorrow take care of itself. If you're losing concentration, distract yourself by socializing with coworkers or friends. Work on the social aspect of your life a little bit more intensely -- there are goals there that you haven't met yet.

Inspiring

I am sure I got this from my mom like ages ago, and it has been displayed in my home for just as long, but today I get it.
Thanks Mom.

coffee thought... & horoscope...1/30/11

I made some coffee today- umm yum. just a lazy Sunday, right?
right.. i got to do some laundry, put up the Christmas decorations that I took down after Christmas, cook some dinner (baked chicken, rice & salad), find parking on the correct side of the street (across the street but above the line for the school- really school parking is still in effect with all this damn snow on the ground) prepare for the upcoming snow storms (Tuesday on) i have to finish shredding these old papers/ bills i found (one bag o'junk down- 498 more to go) and then i have committed to writing/ typing more of my fiction INTO the computer so i can make progress of this work (word) then lay out clothes for tomorrow (a more progressive/organized me would take that thru the whole week- alas that is not I) and finally exfoliate which I have planned to do for 4 weeks now. FUN.

oh take a look...

Gemini Horoscope for January 30, 2011

You've worked hard for everything you have. So be proud of your accomplishments ... despite how they may compare to other people's. Everyone is on their own journey through life, and comparing yourself to others doesn't create healthy energy. Today you're challenged to keep a harmonious balance between being generous and conserving your gains. When push comes to shove, it's wiser for you to err on the side of keeping what you have.

...I kind of am feeling that right about now... don't take it personal.

Have a safe, warm & productive Sunday!

that's all.

bored...still

does anyone else see the humor in this??

Snow day & an Ass car

First up Iced coffee as I begin the day-- woke up at my regular time of 6:30 to see if we may have some issues with going to work cause of the snow that was coming overnight...

Next thing you know

SNOW DAY!!!!!!!!!

Today is a snow day & let me tell you something- there used to be a time when I would wish for snow days and hope the snow comes to keep us from going to school & stuff. Bur right about now I am so sick of it cause there has been consistent snow for the past 6 weeks and a chick is about tired of cleaning off my car. sick and tired of fighting with the snow, thru the snow, around the snow...ugh.

and then this damn ass car comes into our block and parks his busted out car on the side of the school sticking out into the street which would prevent ANY plow from coming down the street (side note: not a plow typically comes down this street since we are about 2 steps below tertiary roads and still don't get clear) how rude to come into this block and hold up any possibility of progress.

I think i will tackle the cleaning the car sometime this afternoon.... or maybe not!

be safe out there....that's all

Travis

Travis
Have you ever seen someone doing something so profound, speaking so eloquently that it makes you want to just stop. Just stop moving trying writing speaking hell even breathing and just be present to their words and the emotions and feelings they are presenting. Tonight I saw a wonderful poet author spoken word artist human being and man speak his words his life in poetry (well just a snippet). INspired is beyond what I feel- it is like I feel moved to write again. I feel honored to hear his words, those words and grateful that someone could capture an experience (his experience of course) put them out there for me to know and comprehend and relate to and grasp. Still. Somehow I want to convey to you the presence of him and how great the poems affected me that those words haven't been created yet. I know silly but true. I love and am inspire by the beauty that is his poetry and performance.
now if only I can think about something to write...

sent from iPhone

Hot chocolate

Hot chocolate
I am craving a sweetness that is smooth and full. Something that will fill me up with warmth and heat and passion that it is on the verge of being too much- reckless with the flavor full of hot sugary sweetness.
Something that I know is on the borderline of dangerous and across the line of temptation

Candy coated
Sugar dipped
Hand rolled
Glazed and baked

just give me some chocolate, and I will take care of the rest.

coffee thought...

It is without great fanfare that I introduce thus mornings cup
Of coffee - $2.34 worth of it complete with my french vanilla mixing from home. Yum.
Thoughts? Why oh why do people continue to act brand new? Like you don't know this was the direct result of your actions (the same result as the previous actions since you have not actually changed said actions.)
Sad. Think about it...if you walk the same path you see the same stuff & unless someone knocks down a building and puts up another one it is going the be the same road traveled. And unless you plan on doing cartwheels down the road or taking 10 baby steps at a time down the road it is just the same road traveled.
that's all...

This morning

This morning
I woke up to a serenade in Italian.. which I am sure translated to something like love, amore & desire. Too bad dude was an 70 yr old man on the subway interrupting my sleep.
C'est la vie.<-- which is french LMAO.

MLK & Pancakes

Today we in the world celebrated Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.'s Birthday with a holiday. His actual birthday was January 15, 1929 but typically they reserve the third monday in January as his day.

Google celebrated with a new doodle:

My grandmother celebrated by making me pannycakes:

BFTP...et tu, brute?

originally posted 17 June, 2007

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Disappointments
There have been many.
Some grander than the others,
Others not as big as I expected them to be.
(Disillusionment)
Acquaintances, it is expected…
Friends, surprising but it happened and hurts just as bad.
But family…not you too? Et tu, Brute?
(Discontent)
You know,
Words have power.
You would think the people who say
they love you,
they say they support you,
they say they want to see the best happen to you
for you;
they want to be there with you….
You would think…
(Disenchantment)
Nevertheless their actions are also speaking louder than any of the words that they are saying.
It so happens that life, or my life in particular
Has prepared me for this moment
(Dissatisfaction)

random conversations

Had to paste this random convo with my girl TRS after reading the chicken blog:

TRS: you trip me out on your blog with the sidenotes

me: girl you know how i think/ talk

TRS: but really what does one's black kcard entitle you to. does make you wonder

me: exactly. you should do an indep study on that

TRS: ummmmm

me: no?

TRS: no...And glad you finally claim your good hairedness

me: oh-nope that was a side note of what other people think hence the qoutes

TRS: dude you kill me with that why dont you want to claim the good hairedness. i wish i had good hair

me: dude good hair is like good sex

TRS: and as a side note that does not take your black card away

me: wow side note... and it is a matter of opinion cause ones good sex is certainly another persons poor try at it

TRS: oh no. good sex is not a matter of opinion. they know when sex is bad. they just lying about it.

me: but the sex you know (good or bad) is a result of the sex you been having...right?? follow me-- so if all you have had is bad sex-- then to you it is bad until you can get to or try out good sex comprende?

(this is soooo going on the blog)

TRS: i sure don't comprende. i'm soooo confused. lmao

me: oh shit…you need good sex…or a perm HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAAHAH HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH

TRS: I need both actually lmao

me: WOW…you think good sex can straighten your hair?

TRS: no but it can curl your toes…it'll sweat your perm out. You will know you had good sex when your hair is all curly.

me: thanks for the info LOLOL

TRS: you're welcome

(this is the randomness of friendship)

it's been 25 years

Dear Dad,
Hi. how are you??
hopefully everything is good up there. (well, as good as death can be) I safely believe you are up there cause well that is what i choose to believe. You know, it's been 25 years since you died. Imagine that? 25 years... does this make it your silver anniversary? Eh, probably the wrong terminology to be used but you get the point. 25 years without you here is a long time. I am still me, a little more grown but still me. hopefully you are proud of me in some way shape or form and hopefully i continue to make ya proud. well, I'll let you get back to doing what ya do, and yeah lots of love.

me

Chicken...Finally

for those of you that know me...know me know me....really know me...know that

i can't fry chicken.

seriously, and even in my admission of that statement makes me have to look over my shoulder to make sure 'they' don't come to take my black card away. <-- by the way, this fictitious black card? what does it entitle one too? has anyone every received the gift o' the month just by presenting this black card? has anyone been skipped to the front of the line with the black card? has anyone gotten out of jail free with this black card?? maybe it would work the other way around with that one..eh, just a thought...

Anywho even if the other things were in question (about ones' blackness) like hair type (remember the good hair vs. not good hair argument) or the skin color (dark vs light) or education level, or how many children you have, or brothas you have slept with, or how many times you have seen the color purple-- you could kinda sorta get a pass if you could fry chicken.

Sadly, i am lacking in a few of them items listed above including the frying of the chicken- a staple in the African-American household. So like any other determined black woman I decided, "never give up, never surrender" and vowed to try it again.

Rewind- I guess I should tell you how the previous chicken frying experiences turned out. First time, it looked like a pretty golden brown chicken- inside was utterly raw. Second time, was totally sopped in grease and sooo nauseating that it was just wrong. The third time I tried, let's just say there was almost a fire extinguisher involved...so you can see my reticence in trying again.

This time, I called the expert (grandma) and questioned her- her chicken frying skills are legendary. She told me (after hearty laughter) that is it not that hard, heat the oil, batter the chicken and fry. Thanks grandma. Then I called on bro #2 cause well, he has fried chicken before to my knowledge and is still alive. I questioned him: how hot does the oil have to be? do you put the oil in a hot pan or a cold pan? do you season the chicken before or after you flour the chicken. do you put seasoning in the flour? how do you know it's done? how many times do you turn the chicken over? when do you put the hot sauce on? <--- see soo many questions!!!!

Anywho,

perfectly fried chicken that actually tasted good & was edible.

*score 1 for the 'good haired' black chick.

coffee thought...

today 1/12/11 is a snowy day in NYC but commutable so not too bad.
my thoughts as I drink this think coffee...
is 7 am too early to have boston market?
well while that is the question at had it really does not even matter since I already had leftover boston market this morning at 7:15 but i was just putting the general question out there.
now i need a nap.
that's all...

Somewhere in life

Jan 7 5:41 pm
Someone told me that I decided that life was gonna be hard and that I decided to struggle. And with that knowledge I kept up the facade- life is hard/ therefore i struggle/then I get defeated/ then I repeat. What makes me want to stay in the struggle as oppose to just give up? Who or what am I struggling against? Could it be that i am struggling against GOD's will that I don't struggle against his Divine blessing and just be blessed? Shan't I live in abundance and know that I am enough. I am enough to be cherished like I am and loved like I am and be me. Me is not that hard. Me is simplistic complexity. I know that is an oxymoron of words but really I am like a controlled chaos chasing calamity or clarity (whichever comes first). Trust me it is not that hard yet everyday I choose to struggle. I struggle with who i am what am i doing/ who am i meant to be with?/ why am i alone?/ why does she have someone?/ why don't he love me?/ hell why don't i love me?/ mainly to struggle with the understanding of who I am in this wide wide world and what is my purpose and is anything I am currently doing supporting that purpose. Who can answer that question but me? Who can let me know that hey gal you are right where you are meant to be right when you need to be and right where you are suppose to be. Right now... not later& with no regrets. No regrets which is a thing in and of itself....
sigh, this is what happens when i eat, pray & look for love. (not the book, but the bean version...)

work...i give up.

i love it-
this parent called my place of employment screaching because she owes $7,000 for the current spring term and she didnt have to pay nothing in the fall term. her chile applied for spring dorming and got a $7,000 room.
she asks me who let her chile do that?
i respond speak to your child, but she applied for rooming and got accepted and got charged for the room.

the parent the proceeded to argue "like how are you gonna just put that charge up there?"
i ask her if her chile is living at home now because she could talk to her to find out specifics- the parent said NO, she moved on campus!!!.
so I ask, well how was that getting paid for...
she responds "don't get smart with me"
i give up.

how's that for being specific?

you know me.
(wait, do you know me? I think I can say you do know the parts I allow you to know about me so yeah ...continue)
I specifically ask for what I want.
Like in a restaurant, I am not one to give the waiter a hard time, I just want egg whites cooked well done with a little bit of black pepper and preferably cooked onions, not raw. that's not so hard, huh?
or you know, when i am ordering my coffee, I want it light with 1/2 & 1/2 not milk and certainly not skim milk for that is just wrong. And light, like a mulatto.
I am the one that asks for what I want. In my size and preferably in my color - (well, in most situations I do, I mean I am still trying to figure out how to ask nicely for some things in life that I think I deserve-- you know set the bar of standards with my family and friendships to maintain a healthy reciprocal level of giving camaraderie and love- still working on that one but I digress..)
Other times I definitely just deal and don't complain.
I try not to be a complainer (tho looking at this blog there are alot of views here... not complaints just views, but it's my space so I guess ya'll have decided to deal-- I thank ya for that!) but there is something to be said about the complaint/ complainer - something like the squeaky wheel gets the oil? I don't know I heard that somewhere before and thought, well yes, a squeaky wheel would need some oil but what happened to the rest of the wheels? Don't they need love aka oil as well? What happened to the general maintenance of the whole damn wheel situation??
ANYWHO in my search for love and everlasting long term reciprocal fulfilling love there are new prospects to choose from:

enter Niche dating sites to help you with the search.

think about it- people now a days are customizing cars, coffees and canines to their wondrous specifications and you know we are all choosy by nature but now you can narrow your narrow-minded search to the most specific of fields that is attractive to you.
I wonder if there is a site for single African-American MEN who do not have a kid (or 2 hiding out somewhere) or a baby momma (or 2 hiding out there somewhere) who is available (emotionally, physically) and funny and taller than me who will enjoy me and comfort me in a non misogynistic way and be there for me and allow me to do the same for him all while we make the world a better place complete with trips to Africa & India every other year and downtown Brooklyn loft parties at New Year's complete with a kiss every night just because. Oh yeah, don;t forget about love love love.

how's that for being specific? asking for too much? you know me... you never know until you ask.

horoscope...1/6/11

Gemini Horoscope for January 06, 2011

It's time to do a little personal inventory on your life. Friends, family, romance, work goals ... it's important right now for you to take note of the objective facts about your personal reality. Once you see everything from an impersonal point of view, certain patterns and facts should become obvious. You will be able to get a growing understanding of your situation and be able to make the tiny adjustments you need to make in order to create better balance and harmony in your everyday routine.

sooo yeah... any takers!

coffee thought...

"Change your cup for a better coffee experience"
sort of like changing your outlook for a new perspective???
hmmm we'll see.
that's all...

healthier, wealthier & wise??

that is a goal of mine...

 

well it has been a goal of mine

ever since i have heard the saying

oh so many years ago

definitely something i am still striving for.

 

onward march...

meetings...

i have been in meetings all day& finally i get to have lunch... subway (eat fresh)...cause this is all part of a plan... stick with me now...

coffee thought...

happy new year of 2011..

well happy first coffee thought of 2011 and the thought is how long into the new year are we allowed to say happy new year? Does one generally consider things 'new' after 4 days in? Certainly I don't consider 4 day old food new (ewww) but a 4 day old baby for sure they are new.
How about 4 day old shoes (well, do we really count the days of shoes rather than the # of times we wear them like this is my 3rd time wearing these darn things...)
Anywho, I continue to say happy happy new year & I'll drink (coffee) to that!

that's all...

Welcome to 2011!!!

even in this strange times i do believe
we are in the time we need to be in...
so enjoy