Wednesday, October 27, 2010

coffee thought...

October 27 8:19am
Coffee thought...
Man I wish I had something hot to drink right now- a good cup of java is welcome indeed.
I am on the #2 train to NYC from the BX listening to the noises the folks on the subway make. Morning grumbling, grunting and incoherent conversation pepper the sound of wheels on track, station announcements, general weariness and commute. Welcome to the way we roll- literally.
That's all...


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Monday, October 25, 2010

weird/ crazy dreams (as I sleep of course)

WHY did i have a dream last night that was about to get married to a woman (yes, proposition 8 was in full effect in NYC in my dream) and I was sitting in a directors chair in front of a mirror getting my makeup done by Bro#1 (the chef). Let me tell you A) he is not a makeup artist, B) would not be there doing that C) WTF??? OH it gets better...
yeah, i was sitting next to this chick who was also preparing to marry me (looked like the Caucasian/ Latina chick like the crazy one from girlfriends TV show that used to be on) and my dress was HOT (fitted lace overlay, sparkly and marvelous!) but I was concerned about a few things--
  • didn't want flowers to clash with the dress(it had this gorgeous deep deep purple calla lily/ orchid bouquet with Swarovski crystals in it)
  • didn't know if i could walk in these 4 & 1/2 inch blue crystal studded shoes (HOT)
  • didn't want to disappoint anyone who showed up for this event but more importantly
  • I DID NOT WANT TO MARRY A CHICK!!!!! <-- this one I am sure about even in my waking state...
  • there was no love no nothing no attraction but that was something that wasnt even a concern in my mind.
SO I am SOOO not into marrying a woman and Bro#1 "asked me are you sure", and i was like (whispering cause she was there) hell yeah i am sure i don't want to marry her and he was like "really". I say "Yes, I only wants to wear the pretty dress & shoes"<--- let's take THAT one to therapy.. So the bro goes "ok lets bounce" and proceeded to bum rush the chick like straight elbow to the face, knock her straight off the chair, grab my hand and RUN. Me in the snazzy heels hikes the dress up in one hand & grabs the flowers and am out.i woke up (2:30am no less) like LMAO WTF is going on?????????

TD: um wtf did u have to eat before you went to bed? cuz surely I DONT want that! LMAO

me: I KNOW I KNOW i had a convo with Bro#3 and an apple pie from popeyes
never again will i combine them two cause it is dangerous!

coffee thought...

Coffee & calculations this morning as some people took a full dose of crazy for the commute....

My commute:
yeah so there is no #21 bus, so I walk down the hill- two #15 buses come (1st one had about 4 wheelchairs/ 2nd one was packed) then a #55 bus comes crowded as fluck but I get on only to stop 1 block from the train for over 5 minutes cause there was double parked cabs in the bus stop
so instead of letting us out- you know the 1 block away- he holds us hostage until said cabs leave-- great...So now I fight to the train which surprisingly was not a fight- got on #5 stood- woman tried to shove her bag in my gut, I politely pushed back- got to 14th street see CW waiting for the #6- we get on, chat about for colored girls-- RIGHT when we about to get off (astor place) this dude says to her, excuse me did you know about the national blowjob contest they are having (like really this is before 9:00 am dude!)
she gives the side eye he was like you would be a good candidate- she was like leave me alone- he makes like he is gonna spit on her and told her
DO NOT DISRESPECT ME
she looks at him crossly cause this is ridiculous
i was about to punch him in the face and the doors open
(there is no way i would make this up)
fluckin disaster crazy people on the train...
only thing CW could say is "God protects us always cause crazy probably didn't even know WHY he didn't spit on her... but God protected us."
AMEN to that...
that's all... (for now...)

Thursday, October 21, 2010

coffee thought...

my coffee is bitter this morning- seems to be the story of my life cause today's bitter coffee will make a bitter me.

sigh, maybe the afternoon cup will be better...

that's all...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Today's Lunch

Another day, another opportunity....

Today's lunch includes a salad...step 1 to getting back to where I belong...
Oh & Lil' Jon was here & Famaglia's pizza on 8th street in NYC doing a charity event with other "famous" folks- this is the line/ crowd to get in to have famous people touch your pizza.


that's all...

Monday, October 18, 2010

when bad= good and other foolishness

hi. welcome. this is me at 1:57 pm just getting to my first cup of coffee.
yes, so not a good look.

Surprisingly people have survived and mass destruction has not ensued.
yet.
and what did i have for lunch today? a BIG MAC and fries. this is the 2nd time in 2 weeks I have been to Mickey D's and I am not proud of it. There was a time I would physically get sick at the smells emanating from that place- now as of late, it is calling me and my weak willed self is answering the call like the crack pipe calls my neighbor. why can't I just get the salad?
this is so endangering the loss of poundage that i have accomplished and am keeping off. Of course at this rate I will have regained all that weight and then put myself into depression- a deeper depression than the semi depressed fake it (sunshiny days) till I make it (see. I am smiling. Yes, that hurt my face)
I need to refocus my energies and stop being in this depressive state that even my therapist is unaware of (cause yeah i am good like that- or just bad like that) or maybe because we didn't even get to discuss what i really want to talk about which is stupid since i am paying my money and not getting what i want from all this. what is a girl to do??? speak up? yeah i know.
and I am already stressed. work is stressing me out. People LOVE to not come to work (you know illness and all...riiiight?) and guess who is there with their flippin moral fiber & good work ethic. Moi.
and where does this get me? here still with no real bed & no real prospects and no real motivation to do anything else.
Is this normal?
oh, and when bad=good & other foolishness- yeah i was happy for 0.0005 millisecond eatin that french fry.
My stomach is punishing me now.
foolishness.....

thoughts? horoscope

Gemini Horoscope for October 18, 2010
Beautiful things can be found in some surprising places, so be careful you don't throw out the good with the bad today. Sort through the things that are making you unhappy -- isn't there something of value in there too? Search for the things you can take with you as you continue through your journey. Retain a relationship, lesson or idea that makes you a little uncomfortable right now, because those are the things that will prove themselves the most useful in the future.
what say you?

Saturday, October 16, 2010

ADA

Today was a great great day of sisterhood, health & bonding.
Me & Jem went to a 'hat function' at the American Diabetes Association where we learned about health and taking care of self-something we as African American women put last on the list.
(I know it is something I struggle with daily...)
This function has good healthy food & a couple of speakers who explained the meaning of hats in the African American community... just an informative good day. This is her in her African crown she got from Ghana...she is never one not to show out.



Later on that evening, we had tickets to see One Big Happy Family- a Tyler Perry production. This is not my first time seeing TP but this is a much grander venue.
Let me tell you he did not disappoint.
And one of the themes/ messages in here is taking care of yourself (spoiler alert- the momma dies in moving scene) and tears tears were flowing all around.
Suffice it to say..
lessons learned today.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

10.10.10

today is 10.10.10
which could technically be 30 if yoiu are adding the #'s ...or it could be perfect 10 if you believe in signs and stuff (stuff like addittion) but today was one of them easy breezy sundays that happen to be part of my existence-which i am totally thankful for.
Hung with TD and her lil Peanut he will be 1 month old tomorrow and aww too cute (9lb!!) got some food (from BJ's wholsale place and I could totally run rampant in there and spend up all the $$ but then i have no place to put it)
then chilled at her place & she baked cookies (which is a throwback tradition from when she used to live around the corner from me here and used to saunter over to watch soul food *with the lovely Boris Kodjoe* and we used to watch that lovely chocolate while enjoying some lovely chocolate chip cookies.) Apparently I was BANNED from baking cookies in my own house (mind you the cookies I made leaned more toward the cajun/flambe type) but yeah she took charge of the baking cookies task. Actually I spent the night at her house and we watched movies and chatted and really I love love love just getting emotionally supported by such a good friend.
anywho, today I watched TD bring joy (otherwise known as Peanut) to the 85 yr old lady (Grandma's) Heart as she bought him over to see her. By the way she was looking at him, it was like awwwwwww.
Well, 10.10.10 was a good day.
On to monday (UGH) but happy to be alive!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

google doodle...

<-- this one was posted monday, 9/27/10 which was googles birthday!!!
<---this one was posted today 10/9/10 to celebrate John Lennon's 70th birthday....(pretty cool cause it was a video with a snippet of Imagine)
*all images courtesy of google*


Friday, October 08, 2010

coffee thought...

Things that make my Friday happy!
(found on my desk this morning when I got to work!)
Happy Friday...that's all...

Thursday, October 07, 2010

coffee thought...

Gemini Horoscope for October 07, 2010

Are you ready to let go of your emotional reservations, and actually make some travel reservations? Good, because after recent events, you've definitely earned the right. Now, this doesn't mean you need to jump into anything, especially if you've got issues to take care of at home before you go, but you should know that ditching the hesitations and undeserved guilt you're lugging around is really what's best for all parties concerned. Stop beating yourself up and just go!

i am ready to vamaos!

Monday, October 04, 2010

Oye, I'm sick

Oye, I'm sick
Strep throat sucks.
It hurts to talk.
It hurts to breathe.
It hurts to swallow.
It just hurts
I went to the dr. and he gave me antibiotics to take so I been on them and he also said based on my mouth I am dehydrated (which probably has something to do with me not swallowing)
So yea I am still on grand jury duty which means that I am exposed to less that civil people while i am doing my civic duty (and the case is a whopper!!) at any rate time for sleep again
More on life later!


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Friday, October 01, 2010

New & improved

This is our new & improved sign for the office. Snazzy. The old sign was discolored and faded by the years in the hot sun so this is a 'proper' use of funds (in my humble opinion) that didn't go to my paycheck.--even the font is different which brings me to my next point did you know that NY is spending 27 million on replacing street signs/ names so that instead of it reading "RIGHTEOUS AVE" it will now read "Righteous Ave"- grammatically correctly <--(as those last 2 words were not). Who the flick cares? You could think of so many better ways money could be spent yet this is what our budget is spent on.

Do you remember not so long ago I was writing on the fact we were 'dumbing down' ourselves (or people were making us dumber by virtue of some of the changes to the street signs) & now "they" (they being the same people as before who thought to change the walk/don't walk signs to a red hand/white man combo) say we are not intelligent enough to figure out "HOE AVE" is still "Hoe Ave"-- proper use of capitalization does not make a HOE less of a Hoe.

(Yes, there is a Hoe Ave in the Bronx...just another one of the many wondrous things here)