poem of the day

Orange

Across the miles
Between my head
And my heart
I travel over pain.
Life is much simpler
Once you are dead.
There are no abstracts
Of portraits painted in
Bright blue,
No twisted truths
To Picasso & Van Gogh
Simply put, death becomes me
Vibrant orange beams of light
Shining thru the darkness of the days
Confronted by the notion that
I will rise again.
My head
Hurts no more
My heart
Feels no more
Myself
No more.

coffee thought...

today is all about lukewarm coffee.

yes it started out hot, but quickly faded to a medium warmth that is good for guzzling,

but not quite at the tepid point.

perfecto! that's all...

moving to canada

yeah,

i joke about it,

but really after over 1 month of struggling to figure out what is wrong with me and the doctor co-pays; the drugs and 'scripts i pick up only to find out they are counteracting with each other and need for new drugs/new 'scripts;

the ever so loverly mail order prescription people sending me $50 worth of drugs charged to me that i don't need YET (or at least not 4 asthma pumps at one time and a 90 day supply of blood pressure meds seeing as how i am 15 days into my last shipment)

i think we need a better health care system/plan or something.

obama 08???

only if he promises to fix this shit..

the things we do for a rebate...

So I am waiting for this rebate thing to come in the mail from AT&T wireless (evil cell company) as I purchased a blackjack Samsung II phone (red variety) and was supposed to get $100.00 back to me (thus making the $200 price tag only $100) and within reason for any cell phone purchase.
Now, when I sent the info in on 4/19 (in the midst of all the other drama) they “didn’t get” the barcode or IME #. Good thing I keep copies of everything, and re-submitted the darn thing only to be received by them on their site 5/30/08. So I call 6/30/08 thinking it does not take a full month to validate the thing (seeing as how they had the receipt and the bar code and yes they both match) well spoke to a Virginia that day, to find out that oh yeah, I should have something in 2 weeks tops (this would put us at 7/14) well I call again today, and guess what? The genius Erik on the other line says it will take another 6-8 weeks to process. WTF are they processing? I mean clearly everything matches up and I am paying a whopping $100 per month on a flipping phone bill that I barely use any of the hidden talents of my very cute and sexy phone but I am tying to figure out how the hell the idiots got loose and are running the rebate center of AT&T. Oh yes, I did ask to speak to a supervisor (Bobbi) who politely tried to explain that even though I can build a capital one card in 30seconds or less (according to the commercial) they cant possibly do this any faster—“due to processing time”. One would think this card is made of gold leaf. All I ask for is a simple $100 as I am about to live on ramen noodles since the co-pays to the doctor for these muscle spasms and stress have me on edge (and in the doctors office 4 times already).
Well the good thing is that soon I will be dead. No more co pays for that.

coffee thought...

no coffee thought today...and as a friend/coworker commented:
"oh, you must be sick"

yeah. tell me about it.

ouch...that's all...

pain in the neck...

literally, i have a pain in my neck stemming from constant muscle spasms in my left arm. Now the Dr. gave me some muscle relaxers that i took previously, and while they worked before now it is like chewing candy and not helping nor getting any satisfaction.
so what to do what to do?
i dont know
and i called the dr. who was like done for the day @noon, but if it was an emergency i was welcome to call 911.
(remember 911 is a joke ya'll?)
so i am poppin tylenol like nothing and praying for...
and will try more pills tonight to hope they will knock the mess outta me.
pray for health !!!!

coffee thought...

today it is tea time...

not as in high tea with the queen...

but more like

"oh-goodness-i-am-trying-to-not-to-get-sick-tea"

that's all...

thinking...

that my current favorite quote of the moment is from Quincy Jones...

"when it rains, just get wet"

i approve, not only for the simplicity of the statement, but for the profoundness of it.
think about it (yes it is raining outside currently)it is rain, water, nourishing, life-sustaining. While being prepared is definitely a plus (kudos for those of you who have cute rain boots + Paddington Bear-like rain slicker complete w/ red hat) sometimes there are showers and wind that come along and tend to wash away the grit that life is currently dishing up. It (to me) serves as a lesson and chance to renew (or my favorite saying...Relax, Relate, Release!)
so just don't be alive, taking up space...

go out and live your Life

and in the meantime smile...

be thankful...

and take a walk in the rain.

coffee thought...

add a little cinnamon and sugar & this coffee is just plain good

that's all...

Lions & Tigers & Gorilla & Dinosaurs?

Oh MY!
So I went with my cousins (Angela & Danny) from Bermuda to the American Museum of Natural History (http://www.amnh.org/) [considered my safari on the city] to just see some of the wondrous sites there were. Let me tell you I have not been there in about 6 years or so. In NY, there are a couple of places that are purely touristy and I try to stay away completely from anything touristy...but this place, the museums, I love them. Here are some of my amateur photography pics!

Then my next most favorite place is the dinosaur bones (yes I love Jurassic Park the movies and have all of them). It is AMAZING to see the bones of these animals that inhabited the Earth many many years before we were even thought of...and the just pure massive size of these creatures is awesome.

This guy right here is my favorite...the T-Rex. Yes he is boss.

OH MY!!

coffee thought...

i just saw this quote

"I'm doing my best so congratulate me"

and busted out laughing

because

really if you were doing your best then

who are you expecting congratulations from?

poem of the day

Sing to me
Smooth
Lets do something
Naughty? Nasty? Nice?
Whatever you please…
I need to take a deep breath
And
Inhale
Breathe your essence deeply
Slowly, I cant stop
Taking you in me
All of you
In me
Again
Sing to me
So smooth,
Dark & glorious
And
Oh so sweet
Again
We make beautiful music together…

coffee thought...

iced coffee is much better ICED not room temperature...

that's all...

coffee thought...

I drink because I want to.
I drink because I can.
I drink because it is better than the alternative.

Murder is not befitting of Adiva such as myself.

that's all...

coffee thought...

muscle relaxers= weird dreams. really weird dreams.

AND me writing a coffee thought sans coffee...

that's all...

happy 4th

go out and see some fireworks...

or stay in and make your own

either way enjoy!

coffee thought...

it is times like this I wonder if i have chosen the wrong profession...

that's all...

the craziness that is my job...

ok is it a full moon?*i am at the counter*
this dude just came up to me, dressed in a polo tee shirt with pony on the shoulder & jeans. while he dont look crazy...
him:hello
me: hello
him: i have a question.
me: ok
him:before 9/11 i lost my memory, but i know i was attending a college in NY. can i get financial aid?
me: Ummm,are you a current student here? because only currently enrolled students get financial aid.
him: Well, i dont know, see i cant remember.
me: Ok (drinking my coffee in large gulps now) do you have a NYU Id?
him: could be. I dont remember.
Me: OK what is your name (tho i suspect it is I.M. crazy....)
Him: you dont need to know that. just tell me if i can get financial aid.
me: well. if you are not current enrolled in classes and if you are not enrolling in fall 08/spring 09 classes then no, you cant get financial aid.
him: it's because of 9/11 right? It's because of the economy, right?
me: (dumb a$$ look on my face) not sure what to tell you
him: (looking around nervously AND lowering his voice) can I tell you something?
me: (preparing for whatever...) ok.???
him: i did it!
me: O K.
him: looks at me cross sided, you are not very helpful.
me: O K. Have a nice day
Him: smiles, BOWS and walks away.
WTF?WTF? yes this is where i work....

10 after 5

just finished another day of work here. i am tired of talking.

tired of assisting.

tired of just being the ever so lovely person that i am.

but

on the bright side, we did get paid today.

Whoo hoo for the $$