You know that moment when the truth is revealed to you? Oprah calls it her 'ah ha' moment. It is that clarity that is revealed once the light bulb comes on in a dark room. That is sort of how these past days have been.
The most recent ah ha moment came when someone revealed themselves to me in the utmost crazy way- thus making me rethink all of the interactions before.
I am only going to put this out there once as I am truly done with the situation and find that repeating myself is giving the action(s) more thought/ power than they deserve. Apparently I 'disrespected' this person when I was holding my 10 month old nephew and apparently this 10 month old baby wolverine (according to him) scratched his PSP, which is a handheld game system. This handheld game that has been dropped kicked and over 2 years old- this game is the crux of the situation. Really at 25 years old he is so concerned about a game system that his life is paralyzed because of it- or the supposed destruction of it. Apparently the baby scratched the game- he saw him do it- and because I let him he is mad. So mad that he decided to photo shop a pic of a pig face on me and post to FB.
Really? That kind of was my comment to him because 1) I woke up and saw this and 2) wondered wtf did I do to get in his wrath? I do not ask him about when he going to find a job etc as he ain't and that is apparent. The last conversation I had was on that Sunday and I watched him get the ingredient for lasagna and inquired how his last attempt turned out. He said fine. I said good job. Wow. That of course causes retaliation in his irrational mind and enter my pic with pig face.
After my brothers saw it they were literally going to rearrange his face which yay for sticking up for your sister but really why bother when the whole concept of what is wrong is lost on him- why bother as you are the adults in the situation. So basically just stop. Bro #2 asked his sis wtf is wrong with him- she asked to be left out of it after speaking with him and requesting he takes the pic down. I appreciate her for that as she is not involved but obviously felt something was wrong and said something. I appreciate that but really wish the bro left her alone. The golden child called to see if I was ok and said I can't reason with someone like that - bro #2 was all about check your family [as previous posts were misconstrued and we had a family meeting about it] but no one commented on this.
I just go about my day because I have literally wiped him outta life after I commented on the pic. And initially I felt bad because really one of the things in this world I struggle with is the perception of me and my weight and there he goes and puts that out there. Kudos for him for picking up on that tid bit- but truthfully he probably took a wild guess.
Any who I got home- spoke to grams and was about to go upstairs when she decided to call him over and try to make him apologize.
He was barking he refused to apologize and was yelling at grandma that I know what I did.
He attempted to question me like tell her what you did- tell her what you did.
Little does he know I am a classic and classically trained bitch who can ignore you better than the next person AND I could cut you down so low your would have to pray long, deep and hard before you could even pick up your soul to start to hope to bring yourself back up.
I didn't even acknowledge him.
I ignored every comment from him and responded to my grandma and then told her to stop trying to make someone apologize.
You see, when they lack the intellect and mental capacity to understand the wrong they did and they are seeking attention to their lonely, pathetic and petty life- this is what they do.
They lash out at the only person who has stood for them more times than not when myriads of folks wrote them off.
I said what I should have done is believed the truth of this person from the moment they showed themselves to be someone who does not care first about themselves and then about their 'family' and is so undeserving of any love and affection.
I said because his whole existence is worthless this is his attempt to be seen.
I stopped there as grandma was getting visibly upset and he had the nerve to get mad himself- truth hurts.
So I continued to chat to grandma about life, because guess what? It truly goes on.
He eventually left and went back to his pathetic little existence in the back room- probably to say more ignorant things about me but who cares.
All I know is that I am done.
And once I am done with you - you know it, feel it, and really don't know that you didn't want to be in that position to begin with.
oh well...and in the immortal words of e.badu
...And on and on, and on and on...
(my cypher keeps moving like a rollin stone)...
...Oh on and on and on and on
(u cant fuk with me so jus leave me alone) ...
