coffee thought... Gemini horoscope for May 20 2019

You are on the precipice of a new beginning, dear Gemini. Although this implies that you will just jump right in, it does not actually mean that you have to rush. In fact, you don't have to accept the opportunity of a new beginning at all if you don't want to. You can stick with the same old thing, even though you may not be happy with the status quo. It really is your choice, of course. But if you are brave, you can take a leap of faith and find something much better waiting for you.

well, here is to something new..
oh and by the way only 3 days until my birthday!
gasp~ how is a girl gonna celebrate?
strippers? [no, too greasy...]
penis? [here's to hoping...]
a trip? [why not...]

We shall see...

Happy Birthday to me

41 is a great #

Make a BIG wish!

J.Lo killing it

just so y'all know this lady right here is killing it on her birthday
y'all. This dress is amazing and she is letting all y'all folks know:
It. Is. Not. A. Game.
Mental note to hit the gym
Images subject to copyright- as in I didn't take these pictures

coffee thought...

showing some leg

Enjoy your days...
Yay.
Today is shaping up to be a great day
It is a Monday and I am not at work. I am chilling in a pool with my girls. And my girls are getting some much needed sun.
This afternoon we have massages we are scheduled for and that is something that I need (someone to touch my body please please please)
And on that note that one started his job today (whoo hoooo for making them power moves) many blessings be upon him...
And on another note it is the birthday of the philly boy- which truly means nothing other than it is a day in July.
It's amazing what time does to dates, huh?
In any event, the evenings dinner should be some combination of laughter, liquor and lightness.
that's all...

thinking thoughts about things i tend to think about

thinking thoughts about things i tend to think about

and that is a lot of things to say the least

but right now, 

this current date, 5/20/15 

i am thinking about

me

i try not to think about me

 (at all) 

because at a young age

 i was told that thinking about yourself 

leads to narcissism 

and i didn't want to become someone 

that no one could love (except for herself).

and I know that it is interesting 

because 

i try to be someone that promotes 

love of self

 and acceptance

 and acceptance of ourselves

 and others

 yet i definitely leave me out of the equation 

how's that for simply complicated math?

celebrating some things..

flashback to that time we celebrated May Birthdays 

*me* 

and I got recognized for an award for my mentorship services. 

Some folks came out (TD, GG, my boss)

that's all...

Birthday Love...

This year is a celebration.

I mean why not?

So in celebration of the life I have

and the gifts I have been given

(not monetary) but the gifts of

purpose, compassion, patience, love,

hope, health, with a heart of gold, intelligence,

courageousness, authenticity, responsibility,

and all the talent that I have

I am celebrating it all.

Pics from the day/night...

it's J & J!!!

What I find interesting is that you will see my dress is basically a black body con dress (who would have thunk that I would wear a bodycon dress?) with the word 'love' written all over it. Think about it, I want love in all its forms. I talk about love. I read about love. I write about love.  I love. I welcome love, bring love and am love, no? SO why not wrap myself in love on my day?  I thought it was cute. I thought I was cute. I know I am beyond cute tho, I am grown and sexy. If you don't know now you know (in the words of Biggie Smalls hahaah). All in all a great time.


love love love them

 

AJ & Shima recent alumni
we all can celebrate

yes sista friend.

KF and I chilling.

one of the cool interns
i work with.

another sista here who
is real and true.
 

love this chick right here



CG & me & a drink
love this guy

flowers for me.
a lady loves flowers.
 



this is me.
 love me or leave me alone
but i would rather the love...

basically i got the lemonade upgrade

About Gemini....

About Gemini:

Gemini is symbolized by the Twins. You're flexible, flirty and inventive. Intelligent to the extreme, your idea of a good time is a lively conversation -- or better yet, a friendly debate. Thanks to the Twins' influence, you sometimes feel split in two directions and don't know what to do!

DATES

May 21 - June 21

RULING PLANET

Mercury

RULING HOUSE

Third House

ELEMENT

Air

BIRTHSTONE (SIGN OR MONTH)

Agate (Gemini)

Emerald, Agate (May: Traditional)

Emerald (May: Modern)

Alexandrite, Emerald (Jun: Traditional)

Moonstone, Pearl (Jun: Modern)

QUALITY

Mutable

BODY PARTS

Lungs, arms

KEYWORD

Communication

DATE WITH DESTINY

Libra, Aquarius

RUN FOR THE HILLS

Virgo, Pisces

WHERE YOU GLOW

Multi-tasking

WHAT MAKES YOU TICK

Trivial Pursuit

FITNESS FORECAST

Doubles tennis

PLAY DATE

Tandem sky-diving

PERFECT JOB

Librarian, lawyer

BEST ACCESSORY

Shrug

A SURE THING

Doing two things at once

DESTINATION

Greece

PLEASURE

Options, ambidexterity, knowledge

PAIN

Being on time, commitment, red tape

WHAT'S MY LINE?

It takes two to tango.

Gemini Horoscope for 5/23/14

At this time you must guard against being too aggressive, coming on too strong, or trying to force your own will and thereby arousing hostility in others. Also, frustrated desires and obstacles to achieving your aims can evoke enormous anger in you, and you may do something rash and regrettable. Conflicts and confrontations may be unavoidable, but do try to avoid situations which you know will provoke or irritate you. Working alone is best at this time.

************************************************************************

Well, we shall see how this goes...

Happy Birthday to ME!

Audrey...

 

 

"There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don’t need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain."

"I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it"

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

"Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others.

"If I get married, I want to be very married.

the thing about cake...

the thing about cake is that it is definitely something
I love to love to have
and will seek to have cake for numerous of reasons-
or no reasons at all.
Well, today would be a reason to have cake-
celebrating the birth of my daddy (April 8)
and he would have been 70 years old today.
I know he had a thing for chocolate
(or maybe had that thing cause I used to want chocolate- some things never change)
and I remember just daddy.
He was the epitome of man for me
(no there are no daddy issues here, thanks)
but what I was explaining this weekend was that
witnessing the love between my mom and dad
(and the arguments, and the care, and the struggle, and the fun times, and the laughter, and the togetherness, and the love, and the love, and the love)
makes me think:

WOW. This happened.
Love happened.
Love is real.
Love is possible.
Love is work.
Love is authentic.
Love is consistent.
Love is constant.
Love is amazing.
Love is just...
Love is something that I want.

So yeah, with that held firmly in my heart, I kind of know what love is (and then the experiences I have experienced) that were nearly love- more like eh-this-is-something kind of way.
And I have faith...in love.

Thanks Dad, Happy Birthday. R.I.P

July Birthdays

July is filled with folks birthdays, birthday parties, and birthday expenses.

I mean besides the birth of our Independence,

 there is someone particular,

then Sparkles,

then my lil God-sis,

then the bro #2.

There are a few more random cousins in there

(but since we are not that close, I remember the days and say a Happy Birthday

 but keep it movin...

hell..

.that is more than some do/ did for me..

.and let's be honest we are not 5 years old here...)

ANYWHO

all this to say

I am not buying any more presents.

my presence is present enough!

(no?...damn...let me see if there is room on this other credit card here...)

and to top it off...there was no cake at the office because apparently there are no July Birthday folks who work here anymore. Great. Now I have to procure my own cake. #fatgirlissues

Let's dance!

Things I never thought I would be doing on my birthday:

• Waking up on a king size bed overlooking the water
• Being sung Happy Birthday by a nice woman named Elaine who worked in the Swarvoski store.
• Getting presents.
• Heading to a Polynesian Restaurant where you see hula and fire dancing and great food. And sexy men.
• Go to a strip club. [strip clubs and dollar bills- still got my money]
• See more sexy men.  Get a lap dance. [still got my money]
• Get the stripper to loose his 'focus' [still got my money] *
• Have a wonderful cake and more singing sung to me with candles.
• Making wishes...
• Hearing 'I Love You'- you know? **

Anywho...I made a wish.

 *

Soooo yeah. Cutting out all the other PG-13 stuff and skipping straight to the XXX we (my friend Jem and her daughter) in the club. We watching the folks get it in. We have champagne. Some men are obviously very good at their job- as in they stay fit and flexible. And fit is what my mind kept reeling. And some are not so good/ fit/ attractive.

Any who our table is chilling by the stage cause why not put our table right up front and center. The girls are trying to get me a lap dance.

Literally trying to figure out "what's your flavor?"  Well, it depends on the mood I am in- some days we love a little caramel cream, a little milk chocolate, ooohhh on other days we love love love the dark smooth sexy chocolate- so yeah it depends on the day {however there was this fine chocolate loc'd dude strutting by and my flavor was him for the evening}

So they trying to get me up onstage to get a 'dance'.

Right. I am not buying it (literally) and convince my good good sis to take one for the team.  What you must remember about Jem is that she is so classy- pearls and all- and strippers and strip clubs are not her forte.

Well- she got on stage and went to town.  It was a riot. Her daughter was hollering and it looked like Sparkles had a great time.

Next up was me and the chocolate brother. He came over with a tee shirt for me to 'get'.

just do me- no comment(s) necessary

Well I got the shirt and discovered he has a tongue ring.

Get yo minds out the gutter.

Remember I am a good girl- but while he was dancing and them hookers were telling me to smack it/ touch it/ rub it (slores I tell ya).

I was intrigued by the 6 pack just mere inches in front of me. Hmmm.

I was intrigued by the other inches in front of me... Hmmm.

Anywho I called a time out when he did something with his tongue and I was like oh my he got a tongue ring- to which he busted out laughing and had to refocus. Stripping is serious business.

Suffice it to say WE made a memorable experience of the strip club and now have jokes for days.

Happy Birthday to me

 
** and the 'hearing I love you' part of the equation. It was not by the stripper- thank you very much.
It is what it is- which I have found the perfect words for courtesy of SCANDAL (appropriate).

*text outlined below/ ingrained in my memory*

You have nothing.

You have a pile of secrets and lies and you’re calling it love...

And in the mean time you are letting your whole life pass you by

While they raise children

And celebrate anniversaries

And grown old together.

You are frozen in time.

You are holding your breath

You’re a statue waiting for something that is

Never going to happen.

Living for stolen moments in hotel hallways and coat closets-

You keep telling yourself they all add up to something real

Because in your mind they have to

But they don’t

They wont.

They never will-

Because stolen moments aren’t a life.

So you have nothing.

You have no one

End it now.

 

Happy birthday to me!

Today was a good day

A woman named Elaine sang Happy Birthday to me while I was in the Swarvoski store.

I recognize the signs.

❤

getting my google doodle on...

For the past couple of weeks there have been some fun doodles on the google homepage.
These 'things' make me happy...Please note all images are property of google.

Thinking

What shall I write about?
Third times a charm.
So I wished ___ happy birthday. Yay. I am a bigger person.
Was corresponding to someone for like 2 days- I made the first move. (go me).
Nice conversation. Humorous.
That fizzled as quick as it didn't start.
Now am on to the next one.

Happy Birthday Google!!!!

google doodle courtesy of google.com

can you beieve it!! welcome to the teen years...
(and yes even they like cake!)



~Do what you can with what you have where you are~
     Theodore Roosevelt

9/11 ten years later

9/11 ten years later

Sunday was a difficult and emotional day.
It was the 10th anniversary of September 11th.
That day marked so many many meanings and to think 10 years ago would we be here?
Last year, Peanut was born. That was and continues to truly a blessing.
A few years back- Jacob was born- again another blessing on a day many many people remember tragedy. It seems out of tragedy there were indeed many things to be thankful of.
I clearly remember where I was that day- what I had to do to get home- what my good friend SS & I had to do to get home.
I remember smoking a cigarette on the corner of 14th & west 10th waiting for a bus--
watching the sky and listening to the silence of the air but still hearing the noise of the hearts of us as a people.
The many hours of worrying and travel and the sense of is this really happening here in NY? Worrying about my mother who was stuck in NJ cause they shut down the bridges- finally reaching her via phone and so thankful to hear from her.
I remember speaking to someone and they professed their love for me- funny how that didn't turn out- amazing what tragedy and liquor brings out.
Anyway- fast forward a decade-
Where am I now?
Where are we now?
Think who is not here to see how much I have accomplished or how much is left to accomplish.
Think of who is here...
I went to a brunch for my sister friend Sparkle- kind of bringing together all those who lost someone thru the years- not just on 9/11 but thru the years.
Honestly it was kinda hard - some things are kept repressed until brought to the forefront- but what was beautiful about the celebrate was the many faiths that were represented and the prayers that were said.
We recited the Surah Al-Fatiha, prayed bahai prayers, Christian prayers & buddhist chants for everyone and all of us.
I had a Good day.
Nevermind I found out some news about how someone passed on [it was not what was presented to me but then again I felt I knew all along that something was not right.]
This does not change the love I have continually for this person or who they were to me.
I guess the truth eventually sets you free- but why hide it?
What purpose did it serve?
Does it make anymore sense now than then?
Maybe now as an adult I have more wits about me and I am able to comprehend more- maybe I am finally able to realize truths I already knew when facts just did not add up.
This is why (I assume) I attempt to be authentic in all I do and am fiercely contemptuous of those who mis speak the truth.
Maybe it is all a rouse.

happy happy bean bro bday!

Today we celebrated the born day of my older bro- Chef Bean/ bean bro #1 etc etc. He wanted to grab a few folk and get together and play some billiards. It was great to have a bunch of folks there just having a good ole time, hustling and me making majorly good shots that maybe I may wanna turn pro! (no? well i mean in my head i could be pro..no black widow or nothing but you know)

anywho, after the games we took a walk to Crumbs bakery near Union Sq. & grabbed some confectionary goodies and we copped a squat in the park there.

It was a nice enough evening that altho there was a chill in the air it was a great place to be.

google doodle...

<-- this one was posted monday, 9/27/10 which was googles birthday!!!

<---this one was posted today 10/9/10 to celebrate John Lennon's 70th birthday....(pretty cool cause it was a video with a snippet of Imagine)

*all images courtesy of google*