Random lovely words...

Thinking about love tonight. 

Hopefully it will bring better dreams...

Old words...same thoughts

And the words remain the same 

And the thoughts remain the same 

And it is still 

The same 

Saturday horoscope

you sure?

you think? 

you mean?

eh..

you know..

Waves...

Chilling at the beach
connecting with the waves
writing with the sun
God is good.

coffee thought...

Woke up crazy dizzy this morning
(Like I was twirling in circles in my dreams or something)
And no, I didn't drink last night
But woah this is not a good feeling
A) while standing still everything is moving
B) while walking I feel as if I am not walking a straight line
C) on a moving train-
D) later this afternoon on a boat (equilibrium is key)
Lord, pray for me
And deliver some coffee
that's all...

note to self... words I found

"It's easy to feel uncared for when people 

aren't able to communicate and connect with you 

in the way you need.

 And it's so hard 

not to internalize that silence 

as a reflection on your worth. 

But the truth is 

that the way other people operate 

is not about you. 

Most people are so caught up 

in their own responsibilities, struggles, and anxiety 

that the thought of asking someone else 

how they're doing doesn't even cross their mind.

 They aren't inherently bad 

or uncaring—they're just busy and self-focused.

 And that's okay.

 It's not evidence of some fundamental failing on your part. 

It doesn't make you unloveable or invisible. 

It just means that those people 

aren't very good 

at looking beyond their own world. 

But the fact that you are—

that despite the darkness you feel,

 you have the ability to share your love 

and light with others—

is a strength. 

Your work isn't to change who you are;

 it's to find people who are able to give you 

the connection you need. 

Because despite what you feel, 

you are not too much. 

You are not too sensitive or too needy. 

You are thoughtful and empathetic.

 You are compassionate and kind. 

And with or without anyone's acknowledgement or affection, 

you are enough."

I done said

I done said
all
I can say
about the subject matter
and there is
nothing more
I can say
But I will
Cause
I am me
and
I have to say it
I am like
I'm good and I notice something(s) about my friends
and then when I tell them
(the folks that say they can handle my thoughts and worlds
and let's wrap that all up into the random musings of me)
oh hell.
It's like wow.
 And it's like clearly
I have a problem
so let's just shut you up
 and change the nature of this relationship
 and move from there.
I am like what?
So I give you what I notice-
not that I asked you for anything
and this is like nope- shift.
Well damn.



but I done
said
all that I was gone say

.... (squared)

Just found this:

And this is the follow up to the previous post. Interesting question to ask the universe because 

1) if you are praying for 'him' one would hope he is praying for you (your presence, your success, your happiness, your love, etc...)

2) if you are praying for 'him' and him is not praying for you (yes atrocious English use there) then what is the point of it all? [note: not the point of all prayer just this specific one]

3) but then do you stop praying for 'him'? I mean I pray for those who can't or don't know to pray for themselves- but does one stop praying for others cause they ain't being prayed for?

I mean it's just a hypothetical question, right?

...

 

I think it goes without saying 

but this is so 

powerful

just like prayer itself is powerful 

just like praying for others blessings is powerful

just like love itself is all powerful

 

 

coffee thought...

coffee thought...

Monday morning blues
Today I didn't work out as planned (3rd time my co-workout partner has
cancelled) and that is not to say that I couldn't just get up and go
myself but I mean if I am mega sleepy and I don't have to meet someone
I am choosing self care and sleep above sweat (well at least that kind
of sweat)
And I slept in. (Until 6:28 ohhhhh) and then I decide to get up and
get about my business. Had apple jacks cause why not and the I
proceeded with the business of de-fuzzing and primping and what not.
What not to do is try to detangle extra curly hair without
conditioner. Ouch. Any way. I smell good.
And on to the business of dressing for today. Monday. Tired as i am I
think I match. We shall see.
And on this train ride so far we have had the star crossed lovers
Romeo and Kate, an African drum ceremony, an evangelist, and a few
more savory (?) characters and a few delays and it isn't even 42nd
yet. And it is 9:19.
That's all...


Sent from my iPhone

coffee thought...

no gym today..
I needed sleep
maybe tonight
(since I did have some chocolate rum cake yesterday...)
that's all...

coffee thought...

Day 2 of the gym

I did what I had to do. 

Not dead yet- and am still breathing. 

that's all...

Secrets

The thing about secrets is
The only way to keep a secret is to keep it-
as in not share it
and
just deal with it.
Especially if it is yours...
I was in the car with my cuz and we were discussing
[all that jazz]
and
I was like
it's not like I... well it's...
And she was like
what are you saying???
Now, I interpreted the horrified look on her face as
a horrified look
and
quickly astutely changed the subject.
because burdened be or not,
since this secret is yours (mine) you (I) need not worry
if it will come out if you (I) don't share it.
sounds simple.
so simple
"it could all be so simple... but you'd rather make it hard... loving you is like a battle... and we both end up with scars..." thank you Lauryn Hill
I mean, sometimes I want to tell- tell those that don't know... tell those who i think would care...
And just be the "__________" blank woman that they think is associated with IT.
I mean insert any adjective you may think as IT
but IT is what it is.
So for a person like me, who loves to communicate and am stifled by this thing
who do I tell?

coffee thought...

I made it to the gym. (5:06am)

I didn't die (5:55am)

Yay Monday (6:00am)

I need coffee (6:00:01am)

that's all...