an apology is a start...

Actually remember when you were little and you did something wrong?
like say take some candy or make your brother clean your side of the room or something like that. all the while you were doing it IT was right to you.
SO you kept on.
Until you got caught.
Until someone pointed it out to you.
Until someone made you stop- typically followed by that someone making you apologize to the person you were doing wrong to.
now...
when you were 'asked' to apologize....did you really mean that "i'm sorry"?
were they just words coming out of your mouth at the time because you were asked/coerced/forced to apologize?
what weight did that carry?
how many times after that point did you go back and repeat the same bad behavior?
Never (some people claim moral superiority here)... more like once, twice or 5 more times???
at what point did it truly translate within you that:
yo, this what i am doing is not right/ messed up/ just plain wrong & really i should not be doing it anymore.
at what point did it mean something to you.. those words that you say.
The I AM SORRY and really mean it??
think about when someone apologizes to you...
sometimes you know that by hearing those words it is OK...cause that is all you wanted to hear.
Other times you know with every fiber in your being that those words mean sh!t to you.
that with that apology and $2.25 (accounting for the rise in the MTA costs) you can get a 1 way ride outta there.
hmmm, that's all i am saying...
Oh & read this...