4-5-10

i purposefully did not post on 4-5-10.
that day i spent thinking remembering and in perpetual movement still doing what needs to be done.
I still miss her. I miss my mother.
and so with that i made the final payment on my fathers' headstone/ grave-marker. somehow putting a marker/ headstone there serves as a physical reminder that
"someone was here".
He was here, he lived. MY father was more than just the figment of my imagination.
Putting that there on that particular day helps me know that 'something' was accomplished from moms' will or wishes...something that she always wanted to do was done.
So what do I do next?
Live.. and never forget.