Horoscope: Gemini: June 26th, 2018

The past and the future intermingle, and the barriers between people dissolve. This marks a time of considerable inner emotional and spiritual inspiration, which will rejuvenate and redevelop your personal ideals. Your life takes on a kind of mystical quality at the emotional and instinctive levels now. There is the key to the greater psychic and spiritual sensitivity you feel now.


So I figure that today I have a greater connection to the feelings that I am feeling and the trusting of my instincts should be paramount.

This is... is this?

This is
Exactly why I do not go out... and by out I mean out to the club settings.
Most of the club settings I have recently been setting in involve me standing in heels
 (looking extra cute)
but painfully aware of the things that are going on around me.
Like for example the wonderful colors of the band launch
  and seeing all the colors of Bermuda
meeting NY people in a rooftop bar in NY.
And seeing the married man
 causally and not so subtly
checking out the other married man
who is standing with his wife at the bar.
His hand on her lower back.
She is chatting away with some girl there
and he is making sexy eyes at dude.
 Interesting.
And she is none the wiser.
More interesting
And the wedding ring is nice,
 but it is just an adornment
[kinda like their marriage I assume].
And I go to the bar.
Get me a cool drink.
Drink.

Repeat
Wait for Peachy to show up
Drink.
Watch another couple... couple
and decide to leave
Cause
I can not go out
and watch couples
couple
at home.

Semi coffee thought for today...

Semi coffee thought for today:
Watched the movie magic mike XXL- and let me tell you something
There ain't bit a bit of believable plot in this movie here
However
The moves on one (or more) of these men there- I mean
Oh Lawd...
And maybe it is because of the lack of sexual anything in my life at
this time that them mens there looked ultra appealing
But i ain't mad at that.

that's all (too)...

Whose left...?

Whose Left to Love the Black Woman?

This is a line from being Mary Jane that is resonating with me at this moment (getting caught up on all the craziness that is this show about a 38 yr old successful African-American woman who cannot find love/ man/ kids to complete   love her & make up the perfect picture of her life that she dreamed of - and the life that folks think makes you complete with all them things because if you do not have all them things you are not enough)
Anywho... this statement is because she was chatting with a very successful African-American male and he said something to the effect that African American men are targeted in this society (true) and it is more so than the women which is why they choose white women because they show them love (something asinine came out his mouth in this show) and she said while ya'll men running around being victims and choosing the white women who (some) helped create and foster the threatening stereotype of the African- American man who is left to love the Black Woman?
Considering she has to be all things to everyone (strong, intelligent, resilient, caring, nurturing, amazing, powerful, educated, sexy & chaste at the same time) who is left to handle all that?
I found that to be a good question (not that I agree all black males are running to white women) but I agree that with the perceived or real lack of good qualified men out there 
where does that leave me? whose left?
and just like the last piece of random food on a plate (already picked over and passed over and not wanted) does that mean I take 'what's left'? Are we (I) running out of options and should I be looking into a new kind of meal?
Hmmm... i believe i have lost my appetite...

that's all...

coffee thought... Horoscope: Gemini: February 15th, 2015

You can afford to be avant-garde today-

let the progressive revolutionary in you roam at will.

Today is filled with thought-provoking discussions about controversial topics,

unusual or offbeat ideas, or "whacky" concepts.

The tempo of your life is increasing and

may leave you feeling frazzled today however,

because you are quite restless at present,

 you may say things which leave others stunned.

This means as usual I will find a way to put my foot in my mouth

concerning matters of the heart...

specifically matters of my heart

but hey,

why not feel frazzled and be restless...

it beats the alternative

(calm and bored).

anywho...that's all...

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Yes, you are the only one

Yes, you are the only one

Found out little sis of my good friend gave up the goods and had an experience that she was happy and grateful for.
29.
Very decent as in it was not something she felt pressured to do or anything of the sorts.
This was a good thing since in this world excessive sexuality and the ages it is happening is younger and younger.
And it is good that she did it the way she wanted.
Yayyyy!
But uh yeah.
 About that...
Yes, you are the only one
(And that don't make you special so don't get it twisted)
And I mean this in the only one not chosen kind of way
(yet? Keep hope alive?)
I mean it's good that there is something that no one has had of me-
Me
To be more exact.
And I guess in some way that's OK
(cause that's what it is right now)
and that is not because I am selfish or altogether not willing to share-
but to be fair I was not willing to share for some time because there was no one I felt deserved my share)
 anywho yes, I am the only one.
that's all...



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Sometimes

Sometimes

You (I) just need to stop. 

Just stop and consider:

Does it matter?

Does it make you happy?

Sometimes

You (I) just need to know. 

Just know and understand:

There were choices.

There are always consequences.

Sometimes

You (I) just want to be loved. 

Just loved. 

Just...

sometimes

Day 28- 30 for 30 (National Poetry Month)

Day 28: 4:32 pm

To the sexy air traffic control dude

YESSSS signal the plane!

Signal the plane!

Thank you sir for signaling de plane!

 

 

chocolate conversations...

Sparkles: still bored?

Me: yeah, but am running a report  and I need chocolate

 

Sparkles: go get some  

Me: he ain't no where near  here

Sparkles: ummmm who the hell is him

Me : my chocolate …keep up sheesh

Sparkles: now chocolate has a sex? alright. you go ahead with your sexy chocolate

Me : heyyyyyyy  someone needs to have sex

Sparkles: hoooooooooooo

Me : sexy chocolate!  WOW  this is not hip hop hooray--tho it can be OPP...Well...

Sparkles: yet you still a hooooooooooooo

Me : maybe it cant  be OPP….maybe I am a hooooooo

I don't know... what say you?