Coffee thoughts

Coffee thoughts

I thought I didn't have anything to say but that's a lie
You see, here we'd are say 2 of July in the year of 2019 and I am like what the perpetual fuck??? Is it so hard to find a decent man out here in these streets? For the life of me and about to be the death of me I am like sir, Sirs- can we talk?
For instance, I have dabbled here and there on this dating app as to put myself out there. As out there as I'm Going to be since I Am Done with the loud young clubs, blind dating, set ups, unrequited loves lost, married men, unsure of their sexual preference boys and the likes of the sort.
The truth is I'm just a simple woman. Who wants love. Period. I'm not asking for anything more than I care to give but then again what am
I willing to give? That's thought for another day
Anywho
I'm on this dating app trying to meet sane men. Apparently, this is the akin to the quest for the lost city of Atlantis or big foot (hey- maybe all the good men are in Atlantis? )
The randomness of the responses to my profile range from you too beautiful to not have a man hidden somewhere (thanks?) to I find you look just like my sister and that turns me on truly (no thank you).
And I am trying to figure out if this is what is left out there in the world.
Are these the 'lines' that are doing it for the ladies out there?
Are these the actual lines and intentions of Men that are attracting the coupling?
Lawd-- if those are the words that are supposed to be doing it [whatever it it] then I am not the one for it.
Keep me out of it
Keep it away from me
Like, No  for real.
Men out here cannot be saying this reckless shit and expecting seriousness of the responses, like really?

I'm at a loss.
And I lost at this Game of Love thing...




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Are you kidding

This Presidency is a mockery of justice and equity and all the progress that has been made thru the years. Because with the craziness of the world we need this too? Absurdity at it's core. This administration needs to focus on it's efforts of progressing the nation as a whole. 

Pray for us. 

that's all...

Fwd: this pic

This pic is basically 

my work partnership or affiliation 

with my boss

we are working on strategic planning 

and apparently intently thinking about the issue

collaborative working at its best

(I probably was thinking when are they going to open the bar for the open bar) 

but I digress...

 

black women

It is our burden and our responsibility

coffee thought ...

Thinking about numbers in life- today being 9/11 and all.

This number is etched permanently in my brain- 

just like some of the other numbers of importance in my life:

5/23

16

4/08

1/13

8/25

4/05

10/23

3

0

These numbers do not mean anything to most people

 but have very significant meanings to me.

 But back to the original number I am mentioning today-

 many years ago

 people's lives were changed drastically on this date. 

Everyone remembers where they were

 and what they were doing 

and who they were living with 

and who they were loving with

and when the Towers fell

everyone remembered how they were getting home

and who they were looking for 

and what emotions were being felt

and who was missing

and who was never found

and what was never said

 and many things like that. 

Many people made dramatic choices as a result of that day- 

there were a few weddings and life changing plans because of it all--

 and this is not to say that these events would not have eventually happened- 

it is just that when you see destruction and tragedy at hand

one tends to revis their own mortality and place in the world.

So with all that being said...

 What have we accomplished since then?

 Individually

 and as a whole nation

 what has been done to uplift and advance this society? 

What have we done to bring us all together

 in a way that was prevalent that day

 (and yes people tend to bond over tragedies...

and there were a fair few directives and initiatives made

 and some resolute actions are decided on

 because of the emotions of the time...)

What have we gained since then? 

Not only physically

 but spiritually and emotionally

 and just what are we doing?

As a whole, I have no clue anymore

 I used to have a fuller broader and wider breath of emotions to spare for the world 

for all humanity 

however when I have nothing left for me

 I have nothing left to give.

All those number mean something to me.

 Important.

Of Importance.

but what do they add up to?

that's all...

you sound stupid....

I

am

so

sick and tired of folks 

and 

their dumbass attempts 

at news 

on the backs of really 

culturally

APPROPRIATING BLACK PEOPLE

and their accomplishments

or hairstyles 

or features 

or music

or anything for that matter

and calling it theirs

and

profiting 

and everything

just stop. 

Thanks, 

Management

It's must be the way things are

Because I was speaking to a very intelligent friend of mine who happens to have some dating debacles of her own- but one common theme is that these men (when they do get up the courage to ask ya out or be out with ya) they want to turn all possessive on you like Daffy Duck and his 'mine mine mine' scenario. They want to wife you and make ya barefoot and pregnant within 3.8 seconds of meeting you.
And have the nerve to vocalize that complete with crazy stares and crazy creepy behavior. And while being a wife (yikes) and being a mother (double yikes) is something I want (one day) DUDE- can you not come on all crazy in the immediate meeting of you- I mean I appreciate your honesty but damn.
And this is why I am single-- cause settling for bullshit because society says I should (and crazy bullshit at that) ain't for me.
that's all...

What is really ridiculous

What is really ridiculous

is the actions of my family

and the unmitigated gall

they have for their actions.

So bro #1 didn't show up to to help me move.

He blatantly didn't show up.

Ignored the calls/ email / text and voicemail.

And didn't call to say nothing for a week.

Really.

 Like that's OK.

 Really I don't ask for nothing from them.

I don't trouble them for anything

(and get called on it)

yet when I talk about this move

and schedule time

and inform people etc

this is who you are.

I see you.

 I acknowledge you.

 Now watch my reaction to you.

Done.

Coffee thought ...

With friends like that...
What makes you a friend to me?
What makes you think that it is OK to be intentionally cruel and malicious with my feelings, friend? Where it is OK to just taunt and create an entirely uncomfortable place for me, friend?
That is not something friends do.
 At. All.
wait... some friends do that- but I am clear it is from a place of good fun and  genuineness and not on some cruel intentions bit... 
There is no good reason for any of all that.
So, with that said I need to truly reassess who I call my friends
I need to reassess who I trust.
I need to reassess...