coffee thought...

coffee thought...

I need new undies.

Yes, drawers.

Like new.

Cause I mean I have a fair number of pantaloons but:

Some are wild and wacky colors that aren't suitable under work clothes

Some are granny panties (hey don't judge them things are comfortable)

Some are ultra sexy and while tres cute are so not functional

Some are specific to sets that I have in case I need to show it off

(hey. girls gotta dream, no?)

But all this to say that a good, flattering (if that is possible)

decent pair of undies is severely lacking in my underwear life.

Sigh.

This is what is on my mind pre-coffee

I can only imaging what will happen post coffee

Anywho,

that's all...

coffee thought...

random non-sensical poetry that is easily something I don't understand

I just wish that understand came as easily as breathing.

I just wish that if you say something, like we good you mean it.

I just wish that your actions matched up with your words

Actually I wished your words were more true.

At any rate I wish I never trusted...

No that's a lie

I can't take back the overall amount of good you have been 

just because of this

So with all this...

I wish that you understand what I mean to say

And I wish  you understood what you mean to me

And I wish I understood what I mean to say

And I wish I understood what this means to me

into the woods...

I took this quiz from (http://higherperspectives.com/relational-psychology-test/) and found the answers (and subsequent questions about my life) very interesting...

Feel free to judge...

This is what they call a relational psychology test. The answers to these questions indicate relevance to values that you hold in your personal lives. Let’s get to it!

Picture yourself walking through a beautiful forest. The sun is out, there’s a perfect breeze. It’s just beautiful.

Who are you walking with? Him

As you continue on in your walk through the forest, you come across an animal.

What kind of animal is it? Frog

You come up to the animal.

What does the animal do? Follows & Walks (hops) with me

You’re walking deeper into the woods yet, and you come to a clearing. There’s a house in the middle of the clearing.

How big is it? Is it fenced in or no? Small to medium cottage, low stone homely & Inviting

You walk up to the door of the home and it’s open a bit. You enter and see a table.

Describe what’s on the table. Plates & candles & napkins & fruit and food.

You finish looking around the house and leave out the back door. There’s a huge lawn and in the center is a garden. In the garden, you find a cup.

What is the cup made out of? What do you do with the cup? a big mug- sturdy for the large coffees I love! I pick it up and take it with me (never know when I will run into a Starbucks on my journey...)

As you walk to the end of the garden, you find yourself at a body of water.

What kind of body of water is it? A lake? River? Pond? it is a lake/ very huge river very pretty

You must cross this water in order to get home.

How wet do you get? I swim out to a boat (so very?) and then row the boat.

Ready for some answers?

The person you were walking with is the most important person in your life. Wait...

The size of the animal you come across is a representation of the size of your problems. ok, a cool small frog...

If your action was more severe, it means you tend to be more aggressive. If it was peaceful, then more passive. welp..guess I'm a bit passive...

The size of your home is representative of the size of your ambition. small to medium-- hmmmm

If there was no fence around the home, it means you tend to be more open. stone fence-- that's telling... a damned stone fence, huh?

If what you saw on the table wasn’t food, people, or flowers, it indicates some unhappiness. well there was food & other stuff-- does that mean I am semi-unhappy?

How durable the cup you found was is representative of how strong your relationship is with the person in the first part of the story. What you do with it is representative of your attitude toward them. well the cup is a big mug so I guess its a big thing.. and I take it with me so does that mean I take this relationship with me?

The size of the body of water is related to the size of your sexual drive. gasp! we all knew that...hehehe

If you became very wet, it indicates that sex is important to you. If not very wet, it may mean it’s less important. all the way wet... literally when I think of... anywho glad I can swim, huh...

sooo this means that.... oh boy. I need a drink.

Overpacked

So I was looking in my little makeup/pencil case for some dental floss...

because what self respecting woman

does NOT

carry dental floss in her everyday bag

 (oral hygeine is key!) and what is in said bag:

 

9,000 other things- inclusive of:
5 Lip glosses
1 lip stick
2 lip pencils
2 nail polishes
2 pens
3 chapsticks
4 packs of tynelol
1 packet of benefiber (is that expired?)
1 asthma spray (see prev note)
1 nail file
2 halls
1 mirror
1 eyeglasses wipe
and a few bobbypins

suffice it to say NO Dental FLOSS
guess I am not that self respecting after all...

happy day! 12-12-12

coffee thought... & horoscope...1/30/11

I made some coffee today- umm yum. just a lazy Sunday, right?
right.. i got to do some laundry, put up the Christmas decorations that I took down after Christmas, cook some dinner (baked chicken, rice & salad), find parking on the correct side of the street (across the street but above the line for the school- really school parking is still in effect with all this damn snow on the ground) prepare for the upcoming snow storms (Tuesday on) i have to finish shredding these old papers/ bills i found (one bag o'junk down- 498 more to go) and then i have committed to writing/ typing more of my fiction INTO the computer so i can make progress of this work (word) then lay out clothes for tomorrow (a more progressive/organized me would take that thru the whole week- alas that is not I) and finally exfoliate which I have planned to do for 4 weeks now. FUN.

oh take a look...

Gemini Horoscope for January 30, 2011

You've worked hard for everything you have. So be proud of your accomplishments ... despite how they may compare to other people's. Everyone is on their own journey through life, and comparing yourself to others doesn't create healthy energy. Today you're challenged to keep a harmonious balance between being generous and conserving your gains. When push comes to shove, it's wiser for you to err on the side of keeping what you have.

...I kind of am feeling that right about now... don't take it personal.

Have a safe, warm & productive Sunday!

that's all.

November 29 8:59 am

November 29 8:59 am
Trying to recover from the interesting holiday that was my thanksgiving. I got out of work early on Wednesday (early being 4 pm) and got a ride home with Noc. It is very cool driving in NYC traffic at semi rush hour the day before a holiday since you get to see all the sights, sounds, and crazies. We picked up his moms who has a strange admiration for nicki minaj (LOL scary) and then it was off to go home where I had to go spend another $55 on food. Mel owes me like $15 on that one...Mike owes for some cereal and stuff as well. [Mental note I am desperately tired of being the automatic teller machine with the money cause it seems it is automatically Tasha's money...yes I stole that from Soul Food but considering how this is about food and we have soul...]
Anywho my friend "jem" was coming over and I have yet to clean or begin cooking.
Yet to clean.
Yet to start cleaning.
Yet to physically wrap my hands around a mop/ broom or garbage bag.
Finally I get home and just am in awe of my house situation (many of clothes have no home to reside in and feel the need to take root on my couch at all times) and the lot of papers that are on the floor in actual need of a filing place is amazing. Well she came over in a tizzy and in order for her to begin to relax she starts to clean and clean she does. We were up to 4 am cleaning/ straightening/ talking/ asthma-attacking cause of the layer of dust I disturbed and then she stayed up past 4 am when my mind/body/soul could take no more --she was cleaning some more. In the morning I awoke to my coffee brewing (I learned how to set the timer on my coffee maker and OOOH weee I love it) and at that time "Jem" got to the kitchen- yes I have a kitchen thank you very much. Hell, once upon a time there used to be many a throw-down in there with good food produced et al. After a few hours of cooking and watching the parade (which is a tradition that I still do) I started to cooking the famous carrot cake with grand mariner, cornbread stuffing, wild rice, brussels, sweet potato pie, hour de vours, etc. It was alot to begin with and then quickly became too much as she cooked a ham, more hours de vours, Mel cooked roast beef and turkey and some sides. Mike made his extra secy cranberry sauce and folks came over to eat. His GF was there (-_-) and TRS came by with some throwback cookies from my childhood (YUMMY) and kiddies from downstairs came thru to grab some food and truly I dad a tremendous blast. My friend D came then & Noc ran thru at the end just to chill...these are times I love the family, definitely miss mommy as she would have had a grand ole time watching us and eating and laughing. My father would have just had everything on point with the cooking and the joyousness that he is.
Sigh...
Something I do is make everyone say what they were thankful for (yeah I know) and really I am thankful for my life- in all that it is and all that I want it to be I am thankful I can do whatever. I am thankful for my family (and all the crazy that it is) my friends (and all the crazy that it is) and the world keeps going...
that's all for now...

BFTP...

Blog from the past---
Specifically approaching New Year 2007... I find this amusing.
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So as this year is coming to an end, a couple of things that have come to my attention:
My Closet
There is no more room in my closet for my skeletons, secrets, or all my clothes
as the bar in my closet has fallen 2 times over the last 24 hours.
There is no justice in the world!
since I am trying to actually hang up my clothes in the damn closet
and the damn closet is rebelling.
You would think that the universe would see fit to cooperate with me these final days in 2006. Oh well, I guess the universe was like why f* with tradition.
In addition to that, as my mother was in my house surveying the damage,
she said, "YOU NEED A MAN."
Now I am sure she meant something about
needing a handyman
or someone who can fix things and stuff,
but as the brothers roared with laughter and hollered with delight
I was like
"Thank you very much mom, as if I needed to be reminded on the very last day of this year that yes, I do not have a man, that yes, have not found a man, and that yes, I need a man. Thank you mom for them words of wisdom and encouragement for the New Year. In 2007 I will go forth and seek a man.
Any takers?

Oh & the other thing is, one can never have enough liquor in the house for a party, even if there is a party of 1.

Drink up & Happy NEW YEAR!
PS- And that's the way it is.

can't sleep

so for the past couple of nights i can't stay asleep, specifically i sleep for 5 hours OR wake up 5 am no matter what time i lay my head down. this is a pattern (since my arm begins to wake me, i think it has something to do with the pain in my neck/ nerve in my neck)
so i cleaned up my living room a bit. i finally put the luggage up. got 2 bags of garbage together. now all i need to do is either hang up clothes OR get rid of them from my couch.
more details later...