Horoscope: Gemini: January 27th, 2014

You have to learn the art of forgiveness. This is not so much about forgiving others during this phase as letting go of your own self-defeatist attitude and accepting yourself for who you are.Traumatic experiences that occurred in the past contribute towards who you are now.You can see these events in a positive light if you try.

...and I try and I try and I try....

coffee thought...

Ahhhhh...

Sometimes it is worth it

even for just a second.

Happy New Year--kinda late...

Happy New year!
I mean I am 7 days into 2014 and 2 days back to work so that is a plus.
A plus because work was closed due to the ridiculous amounts of snow experienced in the NYC area...
(sigh)
I need to move to Bermuda stat...
anywho
What has happened in the previous days of my non blogging self?
Well, mostly just figuring out some things about myself for myself AND watching a bunch of movies (crash, a wonderful life, Mandela, horror stuff) had a great time at a NYE party at TD house (#nobehaviorcrew) and then a good chill session.
Today.
It seems like chef has had a relapse and has checked himself into 'the place'. What is troubling  (not only about 'the place') is that we (his other sibling + me + his other aka girlfriend) had a real conversation session on Sunday about their relationship and the parameters in which they show love.

Side note:

why is it folks come to me with their relationship issues?

me the currently non relationship having one?

me, also the one who is looking for love but coming up empty.

me, the one who also know what is not acceptable/

what is a deal breaker

and what is not tolerable.

eh.

I guess it's me.

It wasn't working (the conversation and space between them) and proceeded to make everyone involved some tea (hey, I'm part British and it soothes the soul) I chatted with them some more and tried to determine their intentions--- hell, everyones intentions for that matter---and clarify those intentions and actions toward each other that they do to get to their love.
Also wanted them to communicate better and make things work (that's just me, but that aint my business)...but at that time , could tell bro had checked out of this part of reality and was entering his world.
What does this mean?
Well, being back in the hospital means he has access to folks he can talk to to probably help better get situated to the things that are going on.
It also means he recognizes when he is in need and that is better than being forceably placed.
He also said that they appreciated the chat with me and I know what I am doing.
I guess...
I hope.

Update 1/21/14: bro is out and doing fine. a little reset button never hurt no one.

coffee thought...

coffee thought...
It's been a minute and considering we are winding down to the end I the year and folks are reliving what they have done in 2013 and who they have lost in 2013 and who they have gained in 2013 in preparation for 2014 it strikes me as _____ as to what has been accomplished. Somehow this time last year I was not sure of all the things that were going on and never expected the things that have happened. It is a good thing (fingers still crossed) and hopefully an even greater thing.
So what has happened? Travel. Friends lost and gained. Love (ok not really love but an extreme infatuation) curiosity, growth , discernment, happiness, life! I mean in there was many challenges/ and opportunities for stretching the perceived limitations of me. Some things worked out. Others didn't- and that's ok (I have since learned).



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Groceries...

One persons groceries is another persons WTF??

Some things are true...

Whether you believe in them or not.

City of angels.

Merry Christmas to me...

Can you believe this is what my horoscope is telling me?

I mean it is fitting considering how I am feeling but I mean really universe?

Oh and Happy Birthday Baby Jesus...

12.22.13

Hair Stories

So this is me...

before and after..

working on the bangs again

(thanks to Mane Motive)...

I mean why not

(it's been a minute without them)

 and she tapered the ends...

Why not end the year with a bang

(in more ways than one..he he he)

hahaha

(before/after.. flat ironed out)

back view...

Me

Old and new me... 

Maybe it is time for a change;)

So

So
This is what happens when you try to volunteer
You end up missing the session
(as there was some staled train in the tracks)
and you were on the MTA system for an hour.
(and it is never going your way) 
Thanks <--can font="" sarcasm="" smell="" the="" you="">
Guess I'll try to be of service some other time.

Happy dance!

Because I tied a tie...

Now really... I was told my tie tying skills are crap... but that is neither here nor there... and trust and believe I used to be able to tie a great tie, however when one is out of practice then one looses the ability to do such things... (ride a bike, drive a car, ride other things? yes/ no? I digress...)

Soooo in an attempt to know what I know and continually build on what I know I got a lovely tartan tie (purple label) and tried it.

Results!

(check that off my bucket list)

whoo hoo... now to find the outfit to rock it with...

 

there is a dimple

 

styling

strike a pose

Coffee thought ...

With friends like that...
What makes you a friend to me?
What makes you think that it is OK to be intentionally cruel and malicious with my feelings, friend? Where it is OK to just taunt and create an entirely uncomfortable place for me, friend?
That is not something friends do.
 At. All.
wait... some friends do that- but I am clear it is from a place of good fun and  genuineness and not on some cruel intentions bit... 
There is no good reason for any of all that.
So, with that said I need to truly reassess who I call my friends
I need to reassess who I trust.
I need to reassess...