coffee thought...

coffee thought...
It's been a minute and considering we are winding down to the end I the year and folks are reliving what they have done in 2013 and who they have lost in 2013 and who they have gained in 2013 in preparation for 2014 it strikes me as _____ as to what has been accomplished. Somehow this time last year I was not sure of all the things that were going on and never expected the things that have happened. It is a good thing (fingers still crossed) and hopefully an even greater thing.
So what has happened? Travel. Friends lost and gained. Love (ok not really love but an extreme infatuation) curiosity, growth , discernment, happiness, life! I mean in there was many challenges/ and opportunities for stretching the perceived limitations of me. Some things worked out. Others didn't- and that's ok (I have since learned).



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Groceries...

One persons groceries is another persons WTF??

Some things are true...

Whether you believe in them or not.

City of angels.

Merry Christmas to me...

Can you believe this is what my horoscope is telling me?

I mean it is fitting considering how I am feeling but I mean really universe?

Oh and Happy Birthday Baby Jesus...

12.22.13

Hair Stories

So this is me...

before and after..

working on the bangs again

(thanks to Mane Motive)...

I mean why not

(it's been a minute without them)

 and she tapered the ends...

Why not end the year with a bang

(in more ways than one..he he he)

hahaha

(before/after.. flat ironed out)

back view...

Me

Old and new me... 

Maybe it is time for a change;)

So

So
This is what happens when you try to volunteer
You end up missing the session
(as there was some staled train in the tracks)
and you were on the MTA system for an hour.
(and it is never going your way) 
Thanks <--can font="" sarcasm="" smell="" the="" you="">
Guess I'll try to be of service some other time.

Happy dance!

Because I tied a tie...

Now really... I was told my tie tying skills are crap... but that is neither here nor there... and trust and believe I used to be able to tie a great tie, however when one is out of practice then one looses the ability to do such things... (ride a bike, drive a car, ride other things? yes/ no? I digress...)

Soooo in an attempt to know what I know and continually build on what I know I got a lovely tartan tie (purple label) and tried it.

Results!

(check that off my bucket list)

whoo hoo... now to find the outfit to rock it with...

 

there is a dimple

 

styling

strike a pose

Coffee thought ...

With friends like that...
What makes you a friend to me?
What makes you think that it is OK to be intentionally cruel and malicious with my feelings, friend? Where it is OK to just taunt and create an entirely uncomfortable place for me, friend?
That is not something friends do.
 At. All.
wait... some friends do that- but I am clear it is from a place of good fun and  genuineness and not on some cruel intentions bit... 
There is no good reason for any of all that.
So, with that said I need to truly reassess who I call my friends
I need to reassess who I trust.
I need to reassess...

Coffee thought...

Change is constant
No one said it would be easy or wanted or even in un-welcomed-
because some folks really want a change.
Some folks really need a change.
Change can often be hard- because as far as I know
No one ever asked the caterpillar how it felt to become the butterfly
Or asked the bird (after every time it fell) how does it feels when he finally flies...
No- there is one thing that is constant and that is change.
People change.
Relationships change- no better or worse just they change.
One of the questions I have asked was
'Was this love that we shared sustainable beyond change?'
What are we (read: I) holding on to in order to avoid change?
Was this friendship really that valuable that I am going to be lost without it?
Was this person in my life at a time that was utterly chaotic there in some sense of the form, and are they there now?
Was there a reason?
Not so much- hell not at all IF I tell the truth.
I mean, if they do not see value in me and/ or this relationship then what am I fighting for?
No one wins in a one sided fight...
Accepting change is one of the hardest things we can do.
I accept the things I cannot change- because those things I truly cannot change.
What I do not accept are things that I think I could have possibly changed or influenced the outcome of.
A valid friendship lost is not one of the things I thought I needed to accept considering I put everything into it.
But like folks say you can't make someone want more, do more, be more, or put more into something they do not want--
free will baby.
Free will-
it's all bout choice.
And I choose me.
Thanks for the memories!

that's all...