coffee thought... more horoscopes

Wednesday, Oct 30, 2013

Self-image could be a difficult issue for you. Perhaps you've painted a false picture of yourself lately. In an effort to cover your insecurity, you may not have expressed how you feel to some people. When you look in a mirror, you may find that the person you see is quite different than the person other people see. This conflict may put you in some uncomfortable situations.

 

II

Narrowing your scope of vision is a very smart idea now, since it's arguably more crucial to finish your work than it is to have fun. However, saying no may be the most important thing you can do today because this simple act gives you the additional time that you so desperately need to achieve your goals. Stay as focused as possible since your full presence in the moment makes a world of difference.

 

seems like I got a lot of work to do

 

that's all...

I happen

I happen to hate these cancer commercials.
You know the ones where there is someone who is magically (or medically) cured of cancer...because here they are- a testimony to this wonderful doctor or hospital  or treatment.
I really happen to hate these commercials...  
I mean hate with an unnatural,
seething,
vehement anger
and prolonged hatred.
(I have since determined that this is borderline not OK.)
I don't want to do harm to anyone (per se)
BUT...
I mean there is something about them THAT makes me feel like because I couldn't fly to Atlanta or get the 'right' doctors to diagnose (early) and provide the 'right' treatment then I failed my mother in the cancer process. I hear (via them commercials) of those who had advanced staged __ cancer and viola they are cured because of whomever caught it.
They were saved.
Whomever was able to work it out and give then a life beyond this cancer thing.
Give them more time with the ones they love.
Give them one more laugh, kiss, cry, etc
Yippie for them.
I just hate them commercials.

current favorite advice from a TV show...

"Sometimes you can spend too long on a one sided love"
- Violet, The Dowager of Countess Grantham
Downton Abbey

#truth

Have

Have you ever been lied to?
Or are you the liar?
Have you ever been betrayed?
Or are you the betrayer?
Have you ever been hurt?
Or do you hurt??

just some random thoughts...

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Black bags

You know what I realize I don't have? I don't have a black bag
Not a black garbage bag, but a plain black leather pocketbook.
I have orange, grey, green, and an assortment of other colors but the black bag eludes me.
Why? What does that say about me? Does it really say anything as one not owning a black bag has yet to be classified as a criminal offense- but seriously why?
Has a suitable black bag eluded me?
Have I not found one that compliments me?
Have I not found one that I could carry just about everyday and still be satisfied with.
Have I looked for one ? That is the question of the day

This is a tricky topic as I figured with the other bags I choose to carry they came to me in my life when I needed and/ or wanted them.
 Like feeling sassy? Orange!
 It's not easy being green- throw on the green bag and show me how it's done.
But these bags 'appeared' when I needed them and I made it work.
Not a black bag!
Have unconsciously shunned the black bags out there in the world!
Does my personality beg for more snazzy than a black bag can give?
Is that my perception of the black bag!
Gasp!
Anywho, am I making too much of it?
You know me, I tend to over think things many things many many things...
Suffice it to say in
ON A SEARCH
For the perfect black bag
For me
Because I don't share
that's all...

Singing some LH today...

 

Let me be patient, let me be kind
Make me unselfish without bein' blind
Though I may suffer, I'll envy it not
And endure what comes,

'cause he's all that I got

And tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
And it'll be alright

And tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Now I may have faith, to make mountains fall
But if I lack love, then I am nothin' at all
I can give away, everything I possess
But left without love then I have no happiness
I know I'm imperfect (I know I’m imperfect)

and not without sin (and not without sin)
But now that I'm older all childish things end

And tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

I'll never be jealous
And I won't be too proud
'Cause love is not boastful
Ooh and love is not loud

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
Everything is gonna, is gonna be alright
Ooh, ooh, yeah yeah, oh yeah

Now I may have wisdom and knowledge on earth
But if I speak wrong, ooh, then what is it worth?
See what we now know is nothing compared
To the love that was shown when our lives were spared

And tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

coffee thougt...horoscope for 10/16/13

some words...

inspiration from the boobies...
 

Watching

This movie one true thing...
And it is about a career NY'er who cuts back/ gives up her career to come home to take care of her cancer stricken mother played by Meryl Streep. One of the prevalent scenes is when the mother is in pain and the daughter finds the heating pad for her. It is a scene that bothers me because the mother does not want to bother the daughter and does not want to share the issues with her. Also the daughter is doing the best that she can with not knowing how to properly care for her cancer stricken mother.
I can relate.
It is still heartbreaking the 'end' is always what sticks out to me and the way things happened- the way they felt- how I was unable to fix it.
And how I felt like (feel like) a failure because of it (while realizing I am not GOD in any way shape or form).
I don't know.
Some days I still think
If things were different
If things were different
If things were different

Coffee thought...

Been on a morning music kick that has truly helped me cope with the commute.
Today's songs include a gospel medley and one of moms favorite songs 'you raise me up' which makes me think about her all the time because truly (as a wonderful mother does) she raises you up to be the best you can be and makes sure you are aware if you potential and makes sure if she don't know she tried...
I am glad I had MY MOTHER.
I got tearey eyed but no tears fell....
Is this progress or is this just the way things are nowadays?

that's all...

coffee thought...

It is 7:41 and I am more productive than I have ever been on a weekday.
I am on the train after I got up at 5:40 (thank you insomnia)
Showered,
did my hair,
outfit together,
made lunch!! (And remembered to bring it to work...)
moved the car,
took out recycling and garbage.
Damn.
I think I am done for the day...and I have not even gotten to work.

coffee thought

No woman no cry...

That was sung by the honorable Bob Marley...

Seems like the universe is trying to tell me that

I shouldn't cry for some of the things out here...

Well for the abundance of things I seem to want to cry for

 I need to do something

What is the something that a girl can do?

SIGH

"Everything is gonna be alright"

"Everything is gonna be alright"

"Everything is gonna be alright"

"Everything is gonna be alright"

IS everything gonna be alright?

 

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funny convo...well funny to me anyway

this is why spellcheck and Siri are so important...