And

just like that

 everything 

that you thought 

mattered 

 gone. 

And 

just like that

 everyone

that you thought 

mattered 

 gone. 

just

like

that

Today's Gemini Horoscope

Gemini, Daily Horoscope, Monday, July 21st:

The tried and true doesn't cut it anymore: it's the new, the unique, and the original that catches and holds your interest now. Idealism, rationality, and critical thinking become more and more a part of your mental patterns and the way you communicate. You are inventive, original, your mind is on the move out of the box.

A boundary emerges that you hadn't seen -- or even considered -- before. Things may get a little weird as you adjust, but the good news is that this should clarify an important relationship.

Getting out what is deep inside of you is important today. Express yourself. 


Well... If that ain't saying something then I don't know what is. 

Most days I read my horoscope in the evening because truthfully I don't always remember in the morning and if 'it' was meant to happen (cosmically) then it will happen whether I know about it in advance or not... Such is the cosmic circle of life.

Um yeah Integrity, honesty, and things of the sort

Things that are not at all common among dealings with human beings
in this world today nor are they common character traits now a days.
It seems people are definitely lacking basic character to begin with.
Wait... let me specify good character.
It seems that peoples morals, values, memories, truths and convictions bend with the time of day
or
the way the breeze flows and/ or depending on the feelings of the moment.
I say this because increasingly family and friends
are steadily chipping away at their integrity every time they choose not to:
ACT as virtuous as they claim they are.
Speak: as honestly and/ or kindly as they can be.
Stand up and
Hell,
BE a person true to the morals and values they spouted they were-
 not some assigned stereotype or prototype.
At this point only the stereotypical labeling of the marginalized group is the thing you seem to be able to relate to-
and yet it is a shocker that I am amazed that
You
Are
Not
To
Be
Believed
Or
Trusted
In the many
Actions and thoughts and words that have spewed from your face.
And
Many wonder why the truth trust issues I have
prevail over the relations and relationships I have.
Interesting.
And I hate to say this but my reaction is in direct relation to your cause because it--
this affects me
And the reality is as much as I would like for this not to change me--
because I strive to remain
who
I
am
essentially
and not change my core actions and values and beliefs like the wind while staying open and malleable to positive change-
I have to now
shift.
And refocus
And understand
Who
am
I
being
in relation to who/ what has become.

Interesting

Horoscope: Gemini: July 15th, 2014

Getting uptight about revamping something and going over old ground is not the correct attitude.
By going over and correcting your work, only improvements can be expected and this is good.
If it's not right, delivery will be rejected.
This will end up costing you more than you anticipated.
Try to see this as a cycle of self improvement and perfection.

perfection.. that is what i am in search of.
possible?
of course?
self-improvement
of course.
and the editing (of my life) continues.

back to life....

[pretty much where I am right about now trying to regain my balance with all this change about]

more details soon come

Horoscope: Gemini: July 7th, 2014

Unless other conditions are prevailing in your life, this should be a happy, relaxed, and successful period -- one in which you should take advantage of all opportunities for social advancements. Do what you can to make yourself available for new contacts that can lead to successful linking of associations.
hmmmm

What is really ridiculous

What is really ridiculous

is the actions of my family

and the unmitigated gall

they have for their actions.

So bro #1 didn't show up to to help me move.

He blatantly didn't show up.

Ignored the calls/ email / text and voicemail.

And didn't call to say nothing for a week.

Really.

 Like that's OK.

 Really I don't ask for nothing from them.

I don't trouble them for anything

(and get called on it)

yet when I talk about this move

and schedule time

and inform people etc

this is who you are.

I see you.

 I acknowledge you.

 Now watch my reaction to you.

Done.

Gemini Extended Horoscope- July 1

Gemini, Daily Extended Horoscope, Tuesday, July 1st:

You started talking yesterday -- well, talking more as of yesterday -- and you haven't quite been able to stop yet. Fortunately, you've had an admiring, appreciative audience who hasn't wanted you to stop, not even long enough to take a breath. But you're tired now. Your batteries are beginning to wind down. Better make some witty closing comments and find a place to hide out -- with one last admirer, of course.

so what is great about this horoscope is that there was enormously great conversations to be had on the vacation with the ladies in Aruba. We chatted and laughed and the most craziest things but what was the best was the affirmations we shared with each other, and what the ladies said about me.
 
One of the more memorable sayings about me as Modern Day Perfection- because of the way I carry myself and the way I am- who I am being.
I loved that they saw me. They were able to
see me.


Sent from my iPhone

Random quizzes about myself

I have been having a bit of insomnia (more often than not) and have been up taking numerous quizzes online- specific all to determine why I am who I am and that is all that I am. So this evening/ mornings activities tell me what my spiritual power is & what type of wife I am/ will be. 

What say you? 

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Your spiritual power is:

Love

You are a true lover and an ambassador of love. You spirit and persona can allure and absorb anyone. You are so real and raw that your imperfections make you even more lovable. 

The type of wife you are:

The Peacemaker

You're the "yes" woman. Sweet, supportive, gentle, and very easy to get along with. Because of your personality you may be misunderstood, but once people get to know you, they realize how lovely and fascinating you really are. You're perhaps the greatest supporter of leaders, and are very loyal and committed. You love your life and know that others envy you.

Funny.

Well, this is the type of love and wife I want to be-- notice the embrace and the words. 

Thoughts....

silence...

Sometimes

Sometimes

You (I) just need to stop. 

Just stop and consider:

Does it matter?

Does it make you happy?

Sometimes

You (I) just need to know. 

Just know and understand:

There were choices.

There are always consequences.

Sometimes

You (I) just want to be loved. 

Just loved. 

Just...

sometimes

Coffee thought...

June 6 8:24 am

I have been thinking
Thinking a lot.
basically I've been really lost...
In my thoughts about the people in my life.
The people that I love.
There is a certain 'knowingness' that comes with the amount of observation and conversation and connection that I have/ make with people. And with this I have come to the following conclusions:

You cannot change someone. 
No matter how much you want to/ no matter how much you work with them/ no how much you love and support them- you cannot change them. 
They are who they are- completely. 
And at this juncture- once you realize that YOU need to make the adjustments to either keep them in your life accepting them as is OR part ways as best as possible and be thankful for the lessons learned (hopefully) on both parts and choose differently next time.

I watch my brothers in relationships with women who may or may not be the best for them (I mean really who am I to tell?) I watch one support the other literally financially but emotionally? Spiritually? It is very odd to watch their love (in comparison to A- the love I don't have and B- the love I think I would have with a significant other and C- the love I want to have). I don't know I would or could have made the choices they made around each other (because it wasn't with each other/ it wasn't collaborative/ it wasn't a dynamic duo-partner in crime- you got my back type of thing).
I always say- she must do something for him as well as he must do something for her in order to keep this up this far and this long. And I have always said that love is differently for different people and different strokes for different folks, right? But the gall...

The other brother- we just had a long conversations about his lady and the 'not safe' feelings he has around her. Now, for a 6 foot black man to feel unsafe there are a few things that would be present- white robes typically are one of em/ but a smaller Latina woman/ not so much (no offense to my lil Latina sisters out there). When someone throws stuff at you and yells at you and berates you that is not the place to be. That is not something I expect women or men to put up with. It happened with the other bro and the wife and it took him what 3 years to realize that is not OK. 3 year...NOT OK!!!!
I'm sorry but that is not OK. But back to the other one, he is having such issues with his woman that I had to ask- what do you want from this relationship?_______ Are you getting that? _______ what are you doing in the relationship to get what you want? Manipulation? Deceit? Lies? Hurt? Where is the love man, where is the partnership? Where is the shit that all them singers be singing about being in love?  Working together... Knowing the other... Making it work... Committing to it... Actively choosing it...I mean I pray that they are getting what they need/ want/ desire from these loves (mainly love pure and simple) but I don't know. I can't call it based on the discussions they are discussing with me. And while they are discussing with me I am wondering how am I suppose to listen to them. How am I supposed to counsel or advise them. How can I truthfully understand what they are going thru and not judge all the way and not condemn and not...
But it ain't about me.
I am clear on that thru my thoughts.
And my thinking.
It ain't about me.
I remember years ago I used to have a signature on text messages and sign my emails with just love.
I think how ironic that is.
that's all...

Horoscope: Gemini: June 4th, 2014

Something you read now or a piece of information that falls in your lap could alter your thinking radically.

This is good and will help you step outside yourself and gain an insight into the possible outcomes that are available to you.

You must break the habit of feeling as if you must live your life the way you always have.

Wellllllllll
Is the universe speaking to me or what???
God dammit sometimes (more often than not) I want to yell back at the damn universe
what the hell else more do you want from me?
I tried,
I'm trying,
I did.
I'm doing.
I...keep...on...just...keep...on.......