slacker...

yeah been kind of slackin lately...blog soon come

oh what a way to get pancakes

in the morning time there are things that make me smile..like heat and hot water at the same time. like being able to listen to steve harvey morning show & have him be a damn fool on the radio and me dying at the ignorance of the early AM as i prepare to be off to work. as in
FREE PANCAKES @ IHOP!!!
OK I AM done cause if there is one thing u know about me it the love of the panqueque

later that night...

my panqueque experience was just that an experience in the sense that yes everyone loves a free pancake but the sheer stupidity oh the ihop i went to was beyond belief. we went like 7:20 what i feel was a reasonable time and of course there was a line (i mean this was moore than understandable since the pancakes were for a good cause) so it was a 20 mt wait.ok no prob. 20 minutes go by, we get a table. NICE. and the fun begins. the waitress walked by us no less than a total of 47 times, not a hi how are you or give me a moment i'll be right with you or anything to signify that I AM HERE. patiently waiting for acknowledgment <--story of my life, thought the story would be less a bummer waiting for pancakes! soo yeah this story does not have a happy ending... suffice to say i got pannycakes after trials and tribulations

coffee thought...

or tea time?
yeah i feeling a little down so i decided to have some good ole' Lipton Tea.
It soothes the soul..


that's all...

coffee thought...

18-Mar-09 8:31 AM
OK i get that as a person with a child one must travel to different places sometimes during my rush hour commute but
1) why have your deluxe model carriage in the middle of the passageway blocking the doors.
(remember rule #1- do not block the doors.)
2) then you young mother with backpack lean against the poll taking up 2/3 of the way so no one can hold on unless they grab thru you. (not happening)
3) child is wildly kicking in their carriage, while u my think it is cute to continue to give her gummy bears @ 8am I & the pants i laundered and ironed do not want to be bothered.
and with the Metrocard going up to $103 WTF?
can someone now chauffeur me to work daily??
that's all...

coffee thought...

Happy St. Pat's Day!!!


love the luck o' the irish... and I love the color Green!
Now I need some baileys in my java STAT

that's all...

coffee thought...

black people really piss me the fuck off sometimes...
i mean they always have something to say about everything... (naturally)
for example a few cops were on the bus that i was riding to the train this morning.
this young black male hopped off the bus to let another person get on, but another dude got on the bus (not paying) in the back.
the cops asked the two of them, "hey did you just skip paying your fare?" now the kid who actually paid said no, i stepped out to let someone out. the other dude said yeah cause it was too crowded on the front of the bus, but held up his school metrocard (as if to show him he had one). Then some ignorant woman was like "awww leave them alone, don't bother the kids" mind you the COPS were really just doing their job. then the ignorant woman was like I wish y'all would do something to him (what? ask him harder questions???) she was like I will have Reverend Al here in a minute.
WHY OH WHY must you have this ignorance pre coffee? SHE would be the first one to want the police to help her if something went wrong..If someone stoled her bike or something SHE would be the one crying on TV like Whyy oh whyyy...
i know we as a people have a LONG history regarding people in authority and Cops in particularly but these cops are the same people (the good ones) who put their lives on the line daily for our safety. remember in Kindergarten we were told if we got lost or separated from our parents to find a cop. They were supposed to safely assist you to the return of the parental unit. Yeah, they are the ones with meager salaries & danger at every turn.

In the ghetto MANY harbor a particular distain for everything cop related.
I do not approve of the 41 warning shots or the blatant misuse of power that many times is a staple of the coppers around... but dammit the majority "protect & serve"
ok.. i'm done. carry on...

old skool pic

just cause i want to know
WHY
someone let me out in these pants??

spring

09-Mar-09 1:54 AM

spring cleaning... although spring is officially a week away...
someone posed a question to one of my friends about me-

something along the lines of what qualities make me their friend?

Some things came up like Loyalty. Trustworthiness.

Truthfulness. Intelligence.

All these qualities makes me a good friend according to this one person.

I thank u for that.

I know I try with my friends to be all that.

(Sometime I succeed sometimes I guess not so much)
now with that said

I recently had to actively remove someone from a friendship status

to a nothing status in my life.

Why?

Apparently they were akin to a festering boil

that is in no good for your health and just taints your being.

Also for the simple fact that me living my life

causes them such great pain and anguish

AND displeasure that they watch my moves ever so closely

and decide that me living my life to the best of my ability is about them

-AND HATES ON ME FOR IT.

LIKE I GOT TIME TO WORRY ABOUT THEM!!

I mean what are u doing for yourself instead of checkin me?? ?

Looks to me like nothing at all.

And while I DO try to hold on to the ideal that

'there is good in everyone'

and hold on to the slightest possibility

that the overall overarching Godly nature in everyone will prevail

I am acutely aware that:
it aint so.
Sometimes all a person is is all they will ever be.

Maya Angelou said something about

when people show you their true selves believe them the first time.

Yeah & when they continuously dick u believe that too.

ACTUALLY I stopped taking calls from the ex too

so that is 2 people removed from my aura

which contributes to MY well being.

(that 'thing' was truly 1 sided and I am still trying to figure out)

cant wrap my head about it...

life goes on

agreeance- word for the day

agreeance--word for the day

Definitions *agreeance
Part of Speech:n
Definition: the act of agreeing
Example: Usage of the site constitutes agreeance with these terms.
Usage:considered obsolete and a bastardization of 'agreement’
BUT it is a word!

mood swings

Like the title says, mood swings happen faster than I can even fathom because one moment I am focused, working here and attempting to make a difference. The next minute I am in tears about some mundane piece of skin on my hand that can kind of sort of make me think about my mom and Jesus why am I crying yet again. I need a pill or something.

Update:

• NO, I still have not found counseling & at this point (about to be a year later what's the point?) what's done is done, what's not done is not done and move along.
• Still 'fighting' -the weight of myself is heavy (physically & mentally). I am trying to raise myself to some level of peace...this is a heavy load to bear that is not getting any easier or lighter to carry.
  
• This debt of mine is crushing me. Actually debt from every decision of my life is crushing me (good or bad decisions, how ironic the debt has to be paid at some point) whether it be the choice i made to go to school & get a degree= now I have to pay for it monthly to the tune of $700 to Mrs. Sallie Mae or the choice I make to drink tea & coffee each day= the non-white teeth I possess. Yes there is a price to be paid.

now all I have to do is just breathe.

coffee thought...

what to do when the coffee is almost done
&
the work has not yet started??

that's all...

It's Snow Again

02-Mar-09 8:40 AM

while it is snowing on the greater part of the eastern seaboard
& in NYC the Board of Ed closed schools for this 'snow day'
i am up, commuting to work and being grown up managerial like.
no snow day for me.
:( maybe in my next lifetime

HB to a who's Who...

Oh my goodness!

what do you do?

wish a great Happy Birthday

to the creater of The Who's!

It's Dr. Seuss' birthday

according to Google

How do I know?

They have a new doodle!

Fish on FIRE!

SO I have been craving some Salmon in the worst way recently (thinking it is a healthier option than a Big Mac or other dealings...) specifically been craving some Rum Painted Jerk Salmon from a lil restaurant called Negril Village, but with the $22 price tag, I cannot afford that on a regular basis..hence my cooking.
Now, I can cook. Let me just put that out there. I am no Emeril Lagasse or Down home with the Neely's..but trust me a sista doesn't get this size with out knowing how to cook a meal or 2 or 3...
So I gather my ingredients:

• Fresh salmon (about 2 cuts)
• Scallion (2 stalks?)
• Onion (1 medium)
• garlic (about 1 Tbs)
• Rum (I choose Cruzan rum-151 proof)
• Butter (about 2 Tbs)

SO yeah I lay out all the ingredients and chop onion/ combine with garlic and wash fish and throw it in the pan, steaming it and sippin on some (rum hey why not)...

after the fish is about 1/2 way done (with my special seasonings) time to add the rum... so I pour about a 1/2 cup on (i like some inebriated fish) and put down the bottle (thankfully)

I go to shift the fish in the pan & did YOU know that rum is EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE???

EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE
yeah so apparently i am having salmon flambe or something like that...

fast forward 2 minutes and now i have 2 options, call 911 and get the sexy firemen here OR call the brother (chef bean) to see what he thinks...

i figure since i am not properly dressed (or not?) for the sexy firemen I should call the brother.

Chef: hey Tash, What's up?

me: oh, nothing..just..if you put alcohol on something on the stove, like fish, about how long should it burn before you get concerned?

Chef: Well, since typically you put about a teaspoon or tablespoon of alcohol on something it should burn off in like 30 seconds to a minute...

me: (gasp) 30 seconds huh? so I guess if I put more rum than 2 tablespoons on it...it would take longer to burn off?

Chef: Naturally...so how much rum did you put on the salmon?

me: about a 1/2 cup give or take...

Chef: OF RUM??? on how much fish? were you trying to drown it? give it a hangover??

me: what can i say? I like a lil rum

Chef: (LAUGHING) So how long has it been burning?

me: about 6 minutes..kinda

Chef: (LAUGHING MORE< thanks) well OK, you can cover it with a top to stop the oxygen from feeding the flames & you should be able to eat the fish afterwards; it should not be all burnt up and Cajun like. Next time Tash,...just don't.

me: right right...thanks dude..later

Yeah, another 3 minutes later.. it finally burns off and viola PERFECTLY cooked salmon...part 1...now I have to make the jerk seasoning...

wish me luck!