Lawsuit @ work

so I am sitting in my office chair really getting down to business with the work here & I go to roll back to file away some papers I signed on & what happens?

this damn chair nearly topples over as the wheel comes of and has me being all ninja like in the reflexes to make sure I don't end up falling and cant get up.
the chair is over 10 years old with a rusty wheel base mechanism so yeah that's not good.
*almost workman's comp...

chips

the lunch of champions!
( i love love love these things!)

coffee thought...

"excuse me, what is the price of happiness?"
"check the barcode"

Today Google pays homage to the barcode, the thing that makes getting thru the checkout line at the stores oh so quick
(unless the item is not keyed in & the salesclerk does not know that and continuously tries to scan the damn thing every which way till sideways instead of just keying in the numbers below)

yAy barcode!
that's all...

coffee thought...

no one can hurt me without my permission...

freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes....

you must be the change you want to see in the world...

that's all...

coffee thought...

Today the temp is just about 62 degrees. Definitely a day for some cornmeal porridge.
Will have to secure hot coffee or chocolate when i get to work!
That's all...

Jonathan

a few nights ago i had a dream about this man named Jonathan. why do i know the name? cause apparently he was my husband and he had 2 young age kids (a girl about 6 and a boy about 2) whom I was expected to care for in some capacity. Well there was this discussion with grandma & a few of my good friends in my grandmas living room about our marriage (yeah i was his wife- did I mention that?) and why I was not performing my wifely duties (??) inclusive of sex with him. Now, he was a tall dark-skinned, fit & sexy man who was fairly attractive in my dream- so WHY WOULDN'T I WANT TO SLEEP WITH HIM?? I know in some capacity I was tending to the children and they are well cared for; but right before I went into the inquiry my boss was there (in the kitchen walking towards the hallway) saying something about most people try to use the defense/ excuse of death/ mourning as not to move on. I said to her (with a slightly guilty feeling & attitude to boot) well that is not me, I am not most people.
We head into the living room & he speaks first- speaking to the room of folks gathered to listen to this. He says a few things like he works hard (which I agreed that he does) & he 'loves' me but I don't let him in & how he will try harder to make this work and be more sensitive to me?? Everyone waits for him to finish and he says to prove his point he will sign this contract with me.
Grandma hands him a pen and then looks at me to start my story. I start by saying I am not sure of what to do. (period) One friend (T) says in what way? I say I have no one to show me how to take care of these 2 little kids or how to be a married woman. I go on to say I am scared of everything involved here: being with him in a marriage, being a mother to kids that are not mine, having sex, making a life...I just don't know what I need to do here.
Everyone in the room shakes their head to agree to that (like they know something) and I am like so what does this mean?
Oh, I am looking at Johnathan as I was saying all this and he seemed sympathetic & concerned in my dreams but:

• what the hell does this mean?
• am I STILL holding back because of previous incidents & afraid to move on?
  
• why am I confused?
• am I afraid to have sex (gasp!)
  
• and really, the man of my dreams comes with 2 small kids that I have to be a mother to?
• are dreams an insight to your soul or just random thoughts that run thru your head freely at night cause truly some of the dreams I have had are questionable....

sigh, what's a girl to do?

coffee thought...

tea time today as we get into this fall term
& working work out!
have a great day
that's all...

coffee thought...

ok so i am hungry as he!!.. and i had a bowl of cereal @ 7 am...
so my thought today is should i eat my lunch @ 10 am (i made a sandwich- turkey on wheat)?? would that be wrong?
oh yeah no $= no java....
this should be good...
that's all...

raindrops

Distort that which i see
The visions of the world
are sprinkled with rain
Making everything all jeweled & sparkly.
Can you see the beauty in this?

coffee thought...

I suspect this cup was from a once cool & hip coffee spot that got cast aside due to the economy & recession. Nice cup colors though...
that's all...

coffee thought...

???
there is no coffee today since i am crazy busy being someone i am not
who is not myself
which is sad cause i miss me
that's all...

coffee thought...

Good morning.
I don't understand how as intelligent black women/ men/ child, HELL intelligent homo sapiens we avoid what we should do like the plague but are quick to continue on the behavior that is not making anything better.
Case in point I have a few friends who could not even tell you the last time they went to the doctors office for a routine checkup or physical let alone gone to the dentist. Really? Is this your stock answer feigning ignorance? There is a certain amount of personal responsibility that we must hold ourselves to. There is but so much I (and others) can do for you. If that means me holding your hand while you go so be it. But just FYI we need to go to the doctor. STAT.
that's all...

coffee thought...

today i had the pleasure of enjoying a Dunkin Donuts java while I waited for the alternate side street parking to end (which I really don't understand since no once did the street sweeper come down the block... was this just in case they wanted to clean the street but wasn't really gonna do it?) at any rate there is this whole different hustle & bustle in the mornings with the school buses doing pick-up/ drop off, delivery trucks doing the same and LOUD school children right across the street from my house just being loud children.
thoughts (when there are LOUD childs waking you up) are for a nice garage to park the car in to avoid all this...
someday we'll all be free.

that's all...
OH... ponder this!