rainy day thoughts

rumblings of thunder followed by the raindrops on the ground...
today is such a lazy & rainy day.
it makes me wish i had a clean apartment & a glass of rum cream

to just chill out and meditate...

while i dont have the clean apartment, i will enjoy this rum cream. todays choice..cruzan rum cream. YUM

coffee thought...

today i decided to go another route
yes, i am forgoing the coffee and decided on the pomegranate passion jamba juice. this is the first time i am delving to the whole juicing thing (yes my mom had me buy a juicer...who knew she was soo 'hip-to-the-game')
at any rate, we will see exactly if this juice vs. coffee makes me any more sane that the average bear..

that's all...

coffee thought...

some days there is just nothing to say...
just drink...
that's all...

coffee thought...

i wonder if a cup of coffee a day keeps the doctor away.

or if i miss my dose of java will i then need some medical attention STAT...

thats all...

We walk for a cure...

today we did a good thing. we walked in a fundraiser for the American Cancer Society called relay-for-life. basically we (team sole train) had a table and sold cupcakes & did face painting and walked and had a great time. Our team goal was$5,000 and we raised like $1400 towards it, but still that is more to go towards finding a cure to this horrible horrible disease.
myself, khalid & tricia chillin, here we have Team capitan tricia & Tanya
Tessa & Cotia about to "relay" super relayer Matt

The thing that touched me immensely was the "luminaria"- all around the track in white bags with sand were candles. On each bag was the name of a person who passed from cancer. Tricia purchased one for mom [in loving memory] this final walk of the evening, the cancer survivors were positioned around the track & someone started the walk with a torch and as everyone went around more & more people came behind them clapping and supporting them...we stand behind them always. It was amazing and emotional and a very touching tribute to those that passed/those that survived/& those that are there to fight this fight.

more pics to follow...

coffee thought...

sometimes it just takes more than 1 cup...

that's all...

coffee thought...

i love how my people love me, co-worker anthony here didnt see my cup of java and was like "Nata, you need coffee?? (very concerned)" i was like awwwww they know their life is in danger without.

that's all...

Settling for Mr. Right now…(Part1)

I just read the most fascinating article called “Marry Him: The Case for Settling for Mr. Good Enough” by Lori Gottlieb, a fascinating writer (http://www.lorigottlieb.com/).
This article was forwarded to me by one of my good friends who happens to be “in a quandary” to put it mildly. Now, my understanding of this article is that Ms. Gottlieb makes a case for not holding out for Mr. Perfect or Mr. Right in your 30’s +. That this one person could not possibly satisfy every one of your every waking needs (in a phrase complete you) does NOT exist.
Her point is if you are currently with someone who is “just ok” then maybe they should be who you marry pronto because if you are holding out for perfection or waiting on the white knight to ride up on a horse and scoop you away, you could potentially be one lonely person.

This is just one woman’s experience, and as an Ivy League educated single parent (by choice). This is her reality.
This does not sit well with me.

Again, realizing this is her experience, her opinion, her reality, I wonder what does this mean for others? (Specifically me) does this mean that I, a person who has set goals and ideas about life, specific desires and passions I want to experience, specific things I want to accomplish…

that I should just settle.

Just settle.

It sounds like something out of the stone ages.
It sounds like a dirty word.
It sounds like something in the bottom of the toilet.
It sounds like there may be some truth to it…

Think about it: giving up on the possibility of anything and accepting the reality of nothing

(I don’t like the sound of that)

And what about love? What about love?
Love, the emotion, feeling, and action that is supposed to conquer everything, that is supposed to be truly & really the end all be all. What about love? Is that not a factor in this life’s equation (not that I am walking around this earth in rose colored glasses waiting for love to fall out the sky or anything, but something has to be said about love)?

What about Fate? Faith? Trust in God’s plan?
I don’t know… I have to think more on this…
Stay tuned…

coffee thought...

i dont understand why people want to play

"oooh lets see if i can ride the subway without holding the rail"

in the morning and continously mash up my feet with their non workings of the pole.

balance people...that is all i am asking for!

that's all...

lunch time

we need food to live, that's how I see it. So when it is time for me to get the necessary sustanice in this world thru a meal rather than my preferred method of java, i start the "neverending quest for a good meal". this quest happens daily because since "my body is my temple" on some days & hoping 'my body is a wonderland' on others, i can become picky for what i put in me --> (insert joke here)
it's funny, that for a plus-size girl i am a picky eater.
Go figure.
I have many quirks about what I will eat & what i won't. (for example, I tend NOT to do leftovers. Unless it is something I cooked and was particularly fond of (like my chili or baked chicken) then i will do it. Other than that, it is a one shot deal...) all this to say...
i am eating a salad for lunch.
WHY?
do i particularly enjoy salad ??(some days yes, today is not that day)
this day, a salad happened upon me because due to the sheer laziness factor of actually walking a greater distance to an actual food mart than the deli next door (called campus thievery by most) i just ain't feel like it.
plain and simple. so i go next door and the ONLY thing appetizing in the entire place is a freakin salad.
i think it is a conspiracy for forced weight loss...

coffee thought...

at this time i think i may be in love with juan valdez...

that's all...

coffee thought...

it's nice when things work out the way you plan...
even if it means just 1 shelf is up in the bathroom.
that's all...

coffee thought...

today i didn't have any coffee.

there were thunderstorms & lightening and major malfunctions today.

I wonder if there is a connection.

that's all...