Sunday, May 15, 2011

Moms 5/15

The best thing about mommies are their unwavering support.
My mother was the most supportive mom.
She encouraged my dreams and grounded my realities.
She always had a wonderfully kind word for many and any one who needed it
 (and for those that didn't as well).
When we were doing something wrong or borderline illegal,
she would try to remember which one of her kids was doing it
and call them but it sounded like role call. LOL
I loved her 'role call' of Michael Melvin Tasha Nancy- 
and to this day we always wondered what Nancy did to get on the list.
(Nancy was a co-worker who was as funny and helpful as mom).
One of the biggest jokes with Mike was "why am I first on the list?"
probably most of the trouble surrounded him, who knows.
hmmm coffee.
she appreciated a good cup of coffee.
she would often lace her coffee with cinnamon or nutmeg for an extra flavor boost.
(cinnamon turns out is good for blood pressure and stuff. go her!)
she never quite could take hot coffee as years of dealing with us kids
(when we were young),
 and life in general getting out the front door
(as we got older)
she drak her coffee room temperature.
not iced- just room temperature
'when she remembered' LOLOL

Anyway, just a few thoughts on you mom that make me smile at the memories.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Reminder

"the closer we get to being who we are meant to be the brighter we shine"

(cue John Legends' Shine music)

coffee thought..

I have been thinking a lot about things (coffee) and have come to the conclusion that coffee is a good thing. as it turns out (considering my little experiment with giving up coffee for lent/ 40 days etc) i truly truly enjoy coffee. and the act of making getting procuring it is just as fun. (i substituted a lot with tea in this trying times- same deal) the time i spend with folks over a cup of warmed caffeinated goodness is irreplaceable and something i look forward to (even if it is with me [ALONE] and my multiple personalities).
eh, that's all...

Thursday, May 05, 2011

catching up...

on my google doodles (one of the things that make my life amusing as I go thru the daily grind)
<--- something about the audobon
<-- a lil movie featuring charlie chaplin
<- this was Earth day 2011 (save the planet)
<-- look out space (celebrating man on the moon mission)
<-- and this was in celebration of the worlds fair...
enjoy!
(all of these were wonderful displayed on google.com/ all rights reserved)

Monday, May 02, 2011

What happened to basic human rights?

What happened to valuing life- however we may feel about it and ‘liberty & justice for all’???

Whoops- we really don’t mean “all” at all (do we?). We mean all that is not Iraqi, Pakistani, South Asian, Female, African, Black, Gay, Lower-socioeconomic status, Under-educated, etc… basically not the 'all' that we don’t like or have strong reasoning to believe was behind attacks on the US. Yes it is terrible, beyond terrible and horrible what this man did and was capable of and the way people continue to support this ideology- that remains something I cannot fathom...but the way we as human beings, Americans are reacting over a life loss is just as troubling and deserves some serious thought.

Sometimes the human spirit is utterly disgusting.

The display of self righteousness and ‘might’ that is out there right about now is no better than the display that happened on the very fateful day we claim to be fighting for.

Celebrations? In the street? Really? Someone please roll some video footage of other countries on 9/11. Please be reminded that those who oppose Americans & our values were celebrating in the street as we were mourning our losses. WE were outraged at the lack of decorum showed- yet here WE are doing same thing we viewed as wrong then. Think about it-- if it was wrong for them to do it then -- then OF COURSE it wrong for us to celebrate now…no? OH, we feel we are right. (carry on...)

No, I am not sympathizing with anyone at this moment… I am searching for humanity in it all.

Do we not realize that thousands have died (senselessly) and millions more are suffering (continually) right this very second? And human beings want to see a dead body displayed and head mounted on a steak. Yet we call ourselves civilized in the same breath- hardly.

God Bless the USA.

(and may she protect and keep us all from the danger that is mainly ourselves)

Sunday, May 01, 2011

May day! May Day!

***severe lack of blogging going on right now due to a number of things not limited only to work, life, love, travel, transportation, friendships, forgiveness and enlightenment.****
with that said....words soon come.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Sunday, April 17, 2011

poem of the day...

No.
I don't own rose colored glasses
my vision is quite clear-
I see in possibility
but I do recognize or acknowledge fear.
When i speak my words are vulnerable
I trust my actions authentically true
I am courageous enough to know
that my love
is overdue
Giving, Loving,Trusting
Open, Hoping
when I open my heart
I pray all don't come running in

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

coffee thought...

Coffee thought
I remember you drank your coffee cold- simply from years of tending to us and then tending to yourself- funny how that pattern repeats itself- but you didn't like iced coffee : odd. I also remember the numerous laughs we had over the most idiotic things- heretics being one of my favorite things said.
i miss you mom



Red chipped nail polish

Red chipped nail polish
Grandeur gone
Remnants of carelessness left behind
A haggard smile at the reflection in the window
This joke she heard before
Laughter emanates from the sorrow of her soul-
she knows this place.
Despair
Depression
Desperation
Damnation
All these things true
Her life lived fast
grew up too fast-
Danced too fast
loved too fast
hurt even faster-
never knowing the sunshine on her face
or the wind thru her heart
never the smile of a child.
Seen thru the eyes of men
she is grown-but only 15
she is a piece to be had.
A piece of round hipped, slim waisted, young....
to be had.
having lived this life before
eyes always looking down
She struggles to be heard when she asks for help
never taught to be independent- that was understood
you can't depend on no one but yourself
you take what you get
no one asks what you want
you hope it is what you need
but are never satisfied.
So you take your red chipped nail polish
of grandeur gone and smile, even laugh
at the joke
that is on you.

Monday, April 11, 2011

10:44 pm April 11, 2011

10:44 pm April 11, 2011
You cant control your feelings but you can control your actions- beks

This sentiment was echoed by beks as we were discussing the inability of some folk to get past certain actions that have happened in their life. It is not a mystery that love happens, love hurts and then we try to get over said love and what happens? We still remained hurt buy the emotions that we cannot control. The only thing that is controllable is you by you in your situations of you. This flows along with my motto of personal responsibility- classy huh?

Monday, April 04, 2011

Monday breakfast

it is the little things like waffles & dinges that make my morning happy (and i really only like strawberries & powdered suga on it suga!)

*things i do when i can't have coffee*