an apology is a start...

Actually remember when you were little and you did something wrong?
like say take some candy or make your brother clean your side of the room or something like that. all the while you were doing it IT was right to you.
SO you kept on.
Until you got caught.
Until someone pointed it out to you.
Until someone made you stop- typically followed by that someone making you apologize to the person you were doing wrong to.
now...
when you were 'asked' to apologize....did you really mean that "i'm sorry"?
were they just words coming out of your mouth at the time because you were asked/coerced/forced to apologize?
what weight did that carry?
how many times after that point did you go back and repeat the same bad behavior?
Never (some people claim moral superiority here)... more like once, twice or 5 more times???
at what point did it truly translate within you that:
yo, this what i am doing is not right/ messed up/ just plain wrong & really i should not be doing it anymore.
at what point did it mean something to you.. those words that you say.
The I AM SORRY and really mean it??
think about when someone apologizes to you...
sometimes you know that by hearing those words it is OK...cause that is all you wanted to hear.
Other times you know with every fiber in your being that those words mean sh!t to you.
that with that apology and $2.25 (accounting for the rise in the MTA costs) you can get a 1 way ride outta there.
hmmm, that's all i am saying...
Oh & read this...

Coffee thought...

"do u want some money baby? How about some chicken wings? Do u want some fish & grits; i'll hurry and go get it"
Umm ummm ummm
Sigh
whatever

poem of the day

Go to hell…

Some thoughts on my mind tonight

Seeing as how I do not want this… but I need you.

I am busy being right about you

About us

You’re not up for the job

So

We could never work

Silently I say what I should have said

Several seconds ago

Stop

I do not want this

But I need you

So in search of satisfaction

I serenely sit succumbing to the sorrows of my soul

I think

I am

Going to hell

coffee thought...

today's google image
sometime over vacay this image was up there (bro sent it to me isnt that sweet!)
and now for the coffee thought...

i saw a commercial last night for a product to grow your eyelashes... as in a prescribed prescription to apply to said eyes to thicken your lashes..
THIS is what we are concerned about in our society? thicker fuller lashes? this is what we need a prescription for?
shaking my head... i dare not ask what's next....?

that's all...

coffee thought...

my coffee has a world view today... how about you?
that's all....

lunch time view...

i love that the park is open again
yay fountain & arch.

ER security...

among the many things that happened this week is a trip bro #2 had to the ER for 8 hours concerning pains in his back ( tests/ x-rays being done/ still no prognosis) and lo & behold while i was waiting in the emergent care waiting room so was the security guard clearly securing the flat screen TV in the place. granted the NBA finals was on ...but really don't you have a post somewhere to be securing??? it gets better as he would tell home-dude behind him to save his seat every time someone else came in & he went to check out his post- like every hour he left to check and make sure someone didn't sneak in..

this is your health care America.

coffee thought...

this cup is just so coordinated. i love the colors here, it matches my mood soo well.

that's all...

i'm baaack! now calgon take me away

from my Vacay in Aruba! fun in the sun & drinks on a beach... yes a lovely time with pics to follow...
(actually no pics to follow since they will forever be stuck on my digital camera since my computer USB does not recognize anything plugged into it & thus making sync-ing anything to it like a phone, ipod,camera a moot point.)
back to life, back to reality...

edit...2 pics

my B-day part 2.1

cake after the inferno

my B-day part 2

cake for me!

me bday continued...

just random pics of CG @ Mel's house-- Tanya make pina coladas

coffee thought...

thoughts?