coffee thought...

tis the season to add the ice! that's all...

Mother's Day & the Mets...

not a likely combination (i mean you can definitely see wine & cheese or chocolate & all of the above) but the Mets & mother's day?
this is what equals (to me) a big "take your mind off it" while hanging out with bro#2.
he is a HUGE METS fan (nevermind the Mets stand for My Entire Team Sucks HAHAHAH) & since they and the Yanks have new digs this 2009 year and he got tickets... we went to the game. Took the subway & saw the field. It was cozy & chilly since we were by the water out there in Queens but all in all a good game. (they won)
Pics...







and then later in the evening...

i had time to think about all things that equal this day. Last year, my cousin got married and this 1st Mom's day sans mom was all a blur--surreal on an island waking up to someplace unfamiliar..family people were around me but we weren't all together... it is strange that this year everything is so finite. concrete. No one to buy a card for. No one to.. depressing for sure. I still think about all the things we should have time to do... when does that end? when do i cut it out and keep it moving? when do i move on but not forget but appreciate what I have?
yeah somehow I feel like I have 2 strikes against me (dad & mom gone) and am sooo fighting a loosing battle.
breathe...

4:42 am

so yeah i just got home from the club for my friends 29th bday clebration (yay CW) and suffice it to say there are much stories to be told.
let's just say SOME people are not gonna drink for a LOONG time...
g'night/ g'day folks...

coffee thought...

coffee thought (2)...

9 Reasons to Drink More Coffee!

http://health.yahoo.com/experts/healthieryou/10497/9-reasons-to-drink-more-coffee/
YAY...that's all

coffee thought...

when will it stop raining? what happened to April Showers bringing May Flowers? It is May & while I am not anticipating the allergies that come along with pollination etc... WTF?

that's all...

breeding penguins

yeah that is what they are doing in my office..
too
cold
to type...
and yeah to think they JUST turned on the AC (meanwhile the 80 degree weather we had the past week or so was unacknowledged)
really is controlling a thermostat THAT hard?

sunday afterthoughts

today i reminsced with grandma about life and how lucky (her words) she is to be here still at 84 years young. we talked about those who physically aren't here & thought about the good times.
after, i thought i wonder who will think fondly of me when i am no longer in their life?? i wonder if that is silly to think about & wonder if i am doing enough ( of WHATEVER ) to make this life count.
just a thought or two on this rainy sunday

wednesday

i am bored with my life.
yeah bored.
as in (& maybe i should be careful what i ask for...)
but i have nothing to look forward to right now.
i am searching for purpose
i am trying to be alright, hell great dammit.
i am continuously looking for love.
i am contemplating going back to school (???)
i am writing...
but none of it excites me
maybe this is what my 30's are supposed to be like... non excitement + the hum drum mundaneness of everyday routine
wake up, wash, commute to work, work, answer questions, forage for food somewhere thru the day, commute to home, maybe a lil tv, music reading, sleep.
repeat.
boring right?

i need a new hobby...

thanks Bek!

thanks Bek...
(www.smartcookies.com)

And while I was joining the site I had to check a "new box" (31-40)
GASP!!!!
depression starts...

followed by the marital status box (single)
depression continues...

should i even continue?

(yes i am being sarcastic--I have a window in my office & the day is beautiful outside so even these new boxes ain't gonna depress me)

poem of the day

Dedicated to _____& _____

This is what love is…

Yes, this is what our love is…

Red roses & candle lit nights

Definitely part of the mix

(Cause we are the romantic types)

Singing love songs in the dark

Taking long walks through Crotona Park

Sharing the deepest secrets of our hearts

This is what love is…

Yes this is what our love is…

Merely me running fingers through your hair

Your calling me anytime of day

Just to say, “Hun, I do care”

All of this equals our one love

Because

This is what love is…

Yes this is what our love is.

Grocery shopping (just me & you)

Holding hands in prayer

This is just what we do

Because

This is what love is…

Knowing when I am wrong

You will be there to make it all right

Comforted in the knowledge

You are here every single night

Kissing your shoulder blade on your right arm

Trusting your actions and words will do me no harm

I say this to all those who question me & you

Simply put, they can never know the depths of

What true love can do.

This is what love is

Yes this is what our love is.

coffee thought...

it is a beautiful day in in the neighborhood
oh would you be mine?
could you be mine?

that's all...

friday night hang out

battery park pictures

look at the sunset over the water Hudson

&

times square
("I knew we were going to run into Diddy...he run the city")

Sculpture:
love is like dancing when you don't even move...
random cell phone pics...

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(In case you don't know Morse Code the title says Ha ha)

(and of course that says Google)

cheers!