things we lost in the fire (part II)

last night another fire happened upon Jackson Ave. this time 2 doors down (Mrs. Braithwaite's house) from Grandma's house. flames and fire shooting out the building and while she was getting out her building some debris was falling and got her on the arm. she is currently in the hospital recovering; hopefully not hurt too bad. this fire was a 3 alarm fire that took over 130 firefighters & took almost 2 hours to put out. the building is completely gutted & the 2 buildings attached were compromised via the roof.
See link: http://abclocal.go.com/wabc/story?section=news/local&id=6628146

we were out there in the cold, my car being blocked by the truck for a bit so we (meaning grandma) could at least sit and be in warmth.
i am fascinated by the where with all & actions of some things:

• i am skeptical about the origins of this fire and our safety.
• this makes me question what are the motives of other folks out there? safety of others?the elderly who all live around there? the kids that go there...
• grandma was out there with her slippers & coat and refusing to take a scarf or a blanket to keep warm (and it was cold)- when she does this and refuses any assistance from me it makes me feel inadequate as a human being & to unable to care for her or whatever for anyone else.
• i got reprimanded for the order of calls made to family. hello i was getting people out, sorry!!!- this also made me feel like hey there cant you do anything right?
• the grab & go case that i have that i didn't even think to grab & go. I just went. no important papers, no nothing other than myself & family. at least mike had the good sense to grab his clean laundry.
  

after an hour outside we got to go back in... back to a smoke smelling filled house to resume our normal lives. is anything every really normal again?